But we all know that that's not going to happen.
Or am I wrong?

I should have just kept quiet, shouldn't I.

Tonight I'm feeling everything at once.
There's no song, no words that I can think of right now.
And this is killing me slowly.

I'm so tired but I don't wanna slp.
I want to go for a run.

Fell down twice while C fell down 4times.
Bladed all the way to Changi.
Ate wasabi during dinner and teared.
Hung out...

Just when I'm enjoying holidays, work is starting soon.




If my life can be put in a song right now,
it'd be between you and I.
And I'd be 'her'.
Read the lyrics and you'd know.

V blogged abt what happened.. So I don't really need to say anything else.
For most of the conversation, I was just listening.

I can't wait for the JC peeps' exams to be over.


One thing I've learnt though, it is not to read too much into anything.
Yeah Ann, I guess it's better than nothing.

I think, some stuff are better left unsaid.

Frolick with Eme and Ry.
This is the first time I swallowed so much sweets at one go.

Tonight left me totally............. speechless.
You'd knw if I was talking to you tonight.
We'd continue the whole whatever thing after.. the major exams are over, I think? I don't knw.

Life's so bleak (it's really growing on me)
Going to start work on Sun.
I'm so hungry.
Ry says I sound mushy on my blog post. Go and die, yrs 10000 times worse.

Met up with badminton ppl after a veryyyyyy long time.
This is the first time I've turned up for the whatever they organized.
We hung out till quite late. Nobody was home when I got back.

So... my sister thinks we forgotten her bday. And we did not want to celebrate for her.
Wish dont wish also get the same ending. Wtf seriously.
I told my mom, I partly hope that my brother in law will walk away from her so she'd wake up.
She's so mind draining. Our world can't revolve around you? And, you're not always right.

Kkkk I wash my hands off.
Haha.......



I think I should not like you.

crashlikelove : I will work afternoon shifts.. maybe during the following week or smth. I don't knw yet. I'd let you knw so you can come and bug me. I'd make sure I give you the macarons I accidentally poke a hole in HAHAHA ok I'm kidding. Just drop by la!

Gardens is becoming my second home. I went there ytd, today and I'm going again tmr.
I just realized this is the first time I hung out with Ann alone and for so long.
She studied and I read. I don't knw if she managed to study bcos she kept on talking to me halfway.

I think I bumped into quite a lot of ppl recently.
Whether it's at the pool.. gardens.. train station?
Last thing I should do in days to come is to jog on the streets.

Part of me hope Oct doesn't come.
|:
Am off to bed now, goodnight!

crashlikelove: Hahaha we've been friends for sooooo long. Do you not knw I'm a mean person :D HAHAHA Anw yeah la, glyn and I will be working next week. 6 till closing from.... mon- thurs!

mytoesaresexy: chugging along wth hahahaha. ok, i actually want to mail you smth. hmmz.

Although Ann called me all sorts of names today and I think I am becoming overbearing...
it was still a good day.

(:

When I asked for hard to get, I did not mean close to impossible.

Charis- SO DO I. PLUS TRUFFLES MOONCAKE

Mycalendargirl- yes? obviously I think!

crashlikelove- DONT GIVE YOU DISCOUNT hahaha

D- my cousin asked that qns. i think if my mom asks me if im gay... i might just tell the truth haha i miss you moreeee hhahahaha

Eh I don't knw if I want to make mooncake.

My mom thinks its muscles but I think its fats.
Today I had quite an awkward moment, "did any boy take interest in you in sch!"
You tell me how to respond la.

Gave church a miss, I slept at 6 and got up at 12.
To tire myself out, I went swimming so I can slp early tonight.
I ate so much mooncake, I can swear off mooncake for the rest of my life.
And if I'm going to eat them again, I'd... be eating the ones I make.
Decided to go back to bakerzin and work there.
Let's hope the whoever will rmb I'm her relative and hire me back with a higher pay.
Hahaha

Lately, I've been thinking a hell lot.
Like a hell lot.

Today was good.
I woke up, headed to my cousin's house. Came back had dinner, had mooncake for dessert. And set out to j8 to buy even MORE mooncakes.
Got Glyn to help me get bakerzin's one too.
This is the most my mom has ever spent on mooncakes! And we might be making our own ones soon.. Haha. The mooncake frenzy has gotten into our heads.

Headed out to C's place later.
We started burning lanterns. Lighting up sparklers and throwing them up to the trees.
Watching them burn.
It was retarded and yet, fun.
I thought the ppl will call the police since C had her classic screams.
Left at 2? The latest I've ever stayed out since quite long ago.

It's 4 now and I'm dozing off.
Glyn is convincing me to go back to bakerzin! And honestly... I am seriously considering the job.

It's the start of a new day, and I feel like crawling back to sleep.
I had a nightmare last night and woke up feeling flustered.
It was awful. Having yr heart beat so fast.
Even when I run, it's not that fast.

But I'm going to go find a job so.... okkkkkk. I'm off now.
Should I trim my hair? It's getting long but it's not annoying me much. Yet.

Today went on as planned, no sudden back out due to laziness or anything.
And we bladed for a 4 1/2 hours straight.
Never did I blade this long, the most I bladed was 3 hours and ended up with bad abrasions on my leg.
It was fun, we were talking about.... anything. Hahaha
Everytime we say smth along the line of falling, we always nearly slip.
It's a taboo. We must shut up. HAHA.
OK ANW, C, MEET UP TO ROLLERBLADE SOON AGAIN OK.
5 HOURS THIS TIME HAHA.

Okkkk I kinda went to check my GPA? It sucked. -_-

Today we were all suppose to meet up.
Due to laziness and I don't knw what, we all somehow did not meet each other.
Ok, I have a bad feeling abt tmr too..
Instead, I found myself at HGM. I'm becoming a HGM kid already. Yikes.
Borrowed books and met C Ho! To go look for a job at compass.
DON'T TELL YOU WHR.
You're wondering.. of all places I can look for a job for, why there right.
It's bcos I think it's kinda the closest to sch and home.
Hmmmmm and it's air conditioned. Hahaha

My room smells so.. minty right now.
Msn's being a bitch.
Don't knw why it just won't allow me to sign in.

Ann told me ytd that I have a fetish for netball girls.
WTF?! HAHA
Oh she forgot to say, long haired ones especially

Tmr my laptop is going to be at the mercy of my sister.
Not happy, not shiok at all. Didn't you know I'm possessive....
Hahaha whatever.

Did I really sound very very upset ytd? Hmmm.
Today I spent really long hours at the pool.
It was so freaking long. My whole afternoon was gone.
It was evening already when I finally stop to take the longest breath.

I don't knw if it's me.. but ppl around me are quite angsty.
It IS the ppl around me.
Alright, I got chocolate with whiskey mooncake!

This is for Tania

Ok, I said I did not want to blog bcos I might end up wallowing in self pity.
But I'd just blog for youuuuuu hahaha

We were in the same class for POA for two years. And I only started talking to you in the middle of the 2nd year. The number of times I talked to you during sec 3 could be counted by the time I ate pork. (HAHA)

I don't knw abt you, but I love yr company.
It's never boring with you around, I'm always laughing. And I always feel like I might get a sorethroat whenever I hang out with you.

It is almost a year since we talked now.. and I'm glad we're still keeping in contact even after sec sch. Making an effort to hang out every second sat of the month.
I've mentioned it before that there are so many ppl in my life that I'd never ever want to lose.
And I'm glad to tell you that You're one of them.
Thanks for being there, always.

So cheesy but I love you.

(Now dont knock on my window in the morning and I'd love you more hahaha)

Hey, at least I tried right?
It's not like I was expecting anything.
Ok my bad, I was silently hoping for a different reply.
There was this faint glimmer of hope.
It feels like a lot of things happened today but no, only one thing happened. One significant thing happened and it happened fast.
My days are getting shorter and my nights are getting longer.

It's my sister's birthday today. I get the feeling that she might have been looking forward to see us at her place today... But we all did not turn up.
We decided to change the surprise till when she returns from Japan.
By far, she's one of the most sensitive person I've came across so.. I am not sure if she might be feeling upset.
I just hope nothing goes wrong.

Yay I got a new pair of shoes and swimming costume.
I don't knw what else to say, I'm afraid I might wallow in self pity.
I'm going off to bed earlier today and swim my brains away and find a freaking job tmr.

Ask me, and I'd tell you I'm scared.

This morning was the best, I slept at 7 and got up at 1 plus.
I wanted to go for a run but I need to leave for church already.
I'm lazy.. but I'm not particularly tired.
I don't feel like going to church :(

I need to start looking for a job, to get pass my time.
This week is going to be better..
I'm hanging out with my poly mates on wed.. Then C on thurs!

Changes for me are never too drastic.. I mean, I went from the earliest to sleep in the house to the latest.
From the earliest to get up to the latest to get up.
From the earliest to eat breakfast, now there's no breakfast..

I was hired 2days ago, now I'm fired. Haha ok not fired, I didn't get the job.
I was preparing to go to HK, now I'm going to be stuck in Sgp.
If only... my father printed money.
If only... it's actually okay to travel alone and not feel alone.
I think I cannot be alone and if I am, I cannot stand walking around without music.
I'm insecured.
Is that what you call me?

It's 210 now.
Do you think I'm queer if I said I want to get up at 5 later. As in 5pm.
It's like how I tell myself I want to continue running even if my legs hurt.
Told you changes for me are never too drastic.

Yesterday saw me... nuah-ing the whole entire day away.
My sister was talking to me and within 30secs, I stared into blank space.
Later, we were sitting infront of the tv watching Fantastic 4, hiding under the comforter.
It was the ultimate nuah day. I had a surprise visit and got brownies. :D
Then later my sis and I went down to gardens, I looked like I was going for a jog in slip ons. Hahahaha but whatever

My folks came back at abt... 10-11 plus with durians from GENTING.
And I had to open it. My mother said the way I opened it looked scary but hers was no better. The newspaper rotated 360degrees when she was prying it open.
There was a heart shaped durian and I was saying that was my heart. The next moment, there was a freaking rotten durian inside it.

Fuck. My heart is rotten. Hahaha now, they're going to continue the durian opening partII.
Ok my sister wanted to appear in the blog.
So yeah she said hello.
She's so lame.

My sister's friends are coming over. Totally taking the opportunity to mess up the house with the rest of the family not home.

I got so much free time on my hands, I want to go HK.
I want to get out of Sgp. I don't mind if I go to Genting actually........
But I'd want to go alone.
I think I want to go hiking.
Haha I wonder how's life without any connections from the world.

I borrowed alot of shows to get by my time! Watch it's a boy girl thing.
Makes you go all awwww haha and it's hilarious!

First step I'm taking, erasing the exclamation mark from the name.
Next, I'd erase everything.
One step at a time..

I don't care if my hamstring feels like its going to break down.
All I want to do now.. is to go for a run.

I was suppose to be baking the crumble two hours ago but due to certain circumstances, I was unable to bake it on time and now.. I'm waiting for it to be done.
I dreamt I got bitten by a dog again. It looks like the same dog.
I told my mom and she said maybe there was someone talking abt me behind my back. It took me a while to figure it out and then.. it hit me.
What sia, who the hell is bitching abt me.
So we came to the conclusion that someone in my family is bitching abt me bcos of what happened inside the dream.
And she laughed. I asked if she bitched abt me. She laugh even more and asked me back, you think I will talk abt you?
Then.. I said, yeah of cos but then again you will talk it in my face hor.

I just went to find my phone AND I HAD THE BIGGEST SHOCK OF MY LIFE WHEN I WAS CALLING IT I HEARD THE VIBRATION NEAR THE OVEN.
MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT BCOS I THOUGHT I WAS BAKING MY PHONE AND THEN I STARTED TO IMAGINE I SMELLED A METALLIC AROMA.
...
BUT THANK GOD.
HAHA. My mother is some..... I can't call her dumb shit bcos I'm her daughter which makes me dumb shit's daugheter = dumber shit. But wtf, she kept things without opening her eyes, she kept my phone inside her i-dont-knw-what-issit-used-for-in-the-kitchen-kit and kept it inside the cardboard which was directly above the freaking oven.
And I was this close to thinking, I'm a genius. I leave my phone inside the oven and bake it.

Mothers. Geez.
Anw, I've got holidays till Oct... smth.
I'm so free but I don't want to go to Genting. My parents are going genting tmr. K la go, dont come back anymore. Just give me whatever money you have left and pls tow back the car thanks :D