After 5days of freezing, walking, eating, shopping kowloon hongkong.
GUESS WHO'S BACK, YO! Hahaha not like you knew I was gone anw, but I don't really care right now. I'm back and I've got a job to keep myself busy with.
Whr are you domo? I got for you pancakes and yr laoPOUbing.

v^^v

I tell you what I did today, I looked thru the answers for the papers I did last year.
I'm scared and it's bcos I'm not freakingly scared. When.. I should be, right?
Hahaha okay, I should go to bed soon.
I had a dream the night before and I was telling myself in the dream that I need to tell Vick abt my dream. You knw I thought I was awake but it was actually me waking up in the dream so technically, I dreamt I woke up.


I've decided, I'm normal. Ry's feeling the same way as I am. So I'm normal ^^v
YAY

I feel like pushing everyone else to the limit, I wanna see their tolerance level. I don't want them to keep on giving in to me, it's becoming an unhealthy habit. I feel like having someone shout at me, tell me that I'm selfish, I'm doing everything all for myself.

Am I crazy, bcos I think ya'll are too nice and I am taking advantage of you you you and you.

So, shout at me? No, not nag.

A few days ago, some guy from overseas called me.
He asked me if I wanted to invest. I took him for a ride before I gave up talking and passed the phone to my mother.
She said "I'm her mother and my daughter's 12 years old so she obviously won't have the money, sorry."

That's random.
Ok, right now, I still don't feel the nervousness for release of results creeping in bcos I am falling aslp.
So clearly, I am still not nervous.

A table has reappeared once again after 2months without it. My room is seriously cluttered and I hope my mom really.. intends to look for another house. I need a room to myself, I like the company I have now but I don't like the baggage. (IE, the cosmetics.. )

It's more or less confirmed now, I'm getting my results on Thurs.
I'm nervous, yes I am. I'm nervous and I'm excited. No not for the bad results.
Haha. And.. there's dory/Daryl's party.
Geez, that girl is really leaving.
I am going to work (hopefully) and save money to go to Sydney and crash her house dolly's car whatever.

I am trying to find someone but hmmm. I think I need more resources. Help, help.

Note to self: rmb domo's hongdou bun otherwise she's gonna die bcos of hongdou drought

My heart sank.

Anna dreamt she scored 21pts. If that's reality, shit, I'm gonna score 31. Hahaha but since dreams are the opposite of reality, I told her she'd score 12.
I did not dream of anything.. But I don't mind 13 points or lesser. :D

So I said I booked the flights for hk already. I did not mention what happened before that. My sis and my mom took me for a ride, telling me the bookings did not go thru which made me supermegairritatinglyvery pissed. I cancelled on my friends for this and now you're telling me it wasn't booked? So yeah, I kinda blew up and I felt bad then, bcos apparently, both of them were behaving like they had halos on their head.
sis: Can you go to my hotmail?
me: wait, LAH. I'm looking at smth
sis: Pleaseeeeeeeee? :D:D:D

How to not feel bad and my mother was beside me, looking at me click anxiously at everything. Even playing along with me, asking me vietnam can anot. And when I clicked onto my sis email, there I saw the email for the confirmed flight itinery.
me: #(*%&#$)*@&%#
All of them burst out laughing and they told me they were trying hard not to laugh behind my back. Literally.

This is not good, my mother told me her mother who is my grandmother, might not be able to live long enough till her next next birthday. Her next birthday is just this sat and I don't knw how am I suppose to feel. I mean, what, I don't exactly talk to my grandmas. The only thing that's bothering me is how.. I'm going to deal when my turn to tell my kids (If there's any) comes. Like.. "yr grandma is going to die"
You knw how much I love my parents and I won't deny that I am slightly biased to my mom bcos really, I don't rmb spending so much time with my dad but that doesn't matter, he's a changed man now. And I should give him the opportunity. .. right?
Why am I saying this, I sound troubled when I'm not.
At least not for now..
I don't knw whr to start.
I've got a problem with pride.

"I like you"

This isn't a very good day, I heard smth I've dreaded since forever. It isn't a good/bad thing, just smth I dread.
And.. I am most likely going to receive my results next week.
I. Am. Dreading. It.

I am changing my biological clock once again, I cannot always sleep so late but I don't mind waking up late.
I'm hooked on Grey's. I feel like hiding in a hole.


"but, I don't like you enough"

This is not good, I saw my bill and it exploded. The last time it exploded this much, it was when I was.. sec1. Ohgod ohgod ohgod, pls, anybody, don't msg me anymore. Just call me cos I have free incoming calls. I don't care if I dislike talking on the phone or you dislike listening to my voice, just call if you wanna talk to me. Ok?

SO! Instead of going to Batam with V Ann and her family, I'm going to HK. Anybody knw what I can do there? I'm looking online and I can hardly find anything. .. Uhhhhh.

I need to find a new job nowwww.

I told you before,

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Oh hello tease, Japan was suppose to be with my mom but due to some issues, we're planning to go at the end of the year instead with my sister (cherry berry) and for the sydney, it would be with my mother again butttttttt I might tag along to BKK with domo? Don't knw.
Hmm..
I like the idea of working in F&B industry but right now, I don't wanna go spend money and dye my hair another colour presentable, so I'd just let my hair grow, which won't take long, and then I'd just leave it as it is or maybe, dye brown.
Anw, Sunday's my last day at work! ^^v
I told my sis before that I never imagined myself sitting down, in fact, everytime I think of the future of what I would be doing, I'm serving ppl (not a maid and not in macdonalds too you big sucker haha)
My sis thought I dreamt of working in macdonalds. And.. that's sad.
Hahaha.

Went for open house ytd and I met someone I met two years ago and that's so funny. I found her familiar, she found me familiar and none of us mentioned it till.. I hadta go somewhr else.


I hope and pray it doesn't rain bcos I want to go swimming today. I need to clear my mind. This isn't going anywhere and I'm sorry.

Hi, I am most likely going to Batam next week.
Wish me luck bcos, I think I might not be able to cross the border when I come back. Well that's bcos I would most probably be charcoal and they'd arrest me for possesing a chinese passport.

Hopes of going to Japan next month or so is gone like *poof* and now, I might just go to Sydney which is not a bad thing either. I'd get a chance to say hello to D.

I wanted to type quite alot but I am so freaking lazy, it's so late now. My phone is dead. Uhhhhh.

AHHHHHHHH

I'm talking to domo now and.. I don't knw why I said what I said but I did. Hahahhaa. You knw, there are always ppl that you wouldn't wanna lose in yr life right? I mean, not like there's actually ppl that I would WANT to lose but y'knw, some that you die die also cannot lose. .. Ok nvm.
You'd knw when you knw.

I'm going to be jobless in a few days time, so I am going with domo down to borders on Wed to try our uh, luck/grace to get the job. ^^
I saw two guys holding hands today going together to the toilet. My eyes are small, so when it goes like that, 0.0 you knw how big my eyes really went. It's not an everyday thing unlike lesbians.


I am going to dye streaks of red soon, after I quit bakerzin. I am so tempted to trip my manager and be the biggest bitch to have the biggest bitchfit ever at her. HAHAHA but the furthest(?) bitch I can ever get to is just, erh, 'change the fork for me pls'

Eh...... I forgot what I wanted to post. HAHAHA ok, nvm, I'm just leaving it as it is here.

Oh I heard my results will be released on the 24th omgomgomgomg (D, ITS ONE DAY BEFORE YR BDAY! HAHA)

ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS

Go watch, HAHAHAHA

This is so random but.. I really like tamago alot. And if any kind soul still wants to get me smth, anything, for any random occasion, you can get me a tamago pan. Thank you very much.

My sister and I are going to make our own sushi later 8D Right now, she's exercising and we're going to watch OC later, this is my first time staying home for the whole entire day for this week. And I am so freaking lazy to do anything else but just make a nice meal for myself (you too, if you want)
I need to cut my hair soon, I'm going to look like a lion soon.
Right now, I look just like a raccoon. Erm, ah ahbeng one. (rmb my goggle marks?)
Sigh.

I...... have so much to say.

If not for what domo told me last night, I think I would have done smth.. unpredictable. Hmm.
but ohwell.

Ok, so I told a big fat lie to my manager. BUT I really don't wanna work today cos I'd be starting at 1 tmr. Nvm la, my grandfather is dead anw, so it ain't so bad that I said I was going to visit him in the hospital. v^^v V^^V so happy

My sister just called and I held on to the phone for half an hour, what an unexpected conversation and yes I think I'm really unpredictable myself, I did the unthinkable of asking my sister out for dinner. If you're close enough to me, you knw that there's this tension between us that never cease to go away. But anw, she's much better now (I hope) and we're much better now ( I really hope) but I dont want to jump to conclusions. Bcos I don't wanna face another disappointment, the last time I thought of us this way, I shouted at her and once again, if you're involved with my daily activities last year, you'd knw what happened.
Ohwell.

I think even before my results are released at the end of this month, my hair would naturally turn brown. Byebye grey, byebye white, byebye wise hair. I'm growing muddier.
I should cut my hair soon, and I feel like dying it all over again bcos its so fun 8D
but it's bad for the hair and plus I go for regular swimming.......... I can picture myself bald.
Hhahahaha.

Next week's going to be my last week at bakerzin. Happy? Or not. I NEED TO FIND A NEW JOB that accepts my hair colour. C'mon man, daniel tay saw me ytd night and wished me happy new year.
He did not even say anything abt my hair, I don't understand why the fagtard (her name's nicole, i'm telling you her name so you can go bash her up at paragon bakerzin) went ballistic and asked me WHY DIDNT I TELL HER I WANTED TO DYE MY HAIR.
I'm sorry but I still cannot get over that sentence and every now and then, I'd picture me throwing the apron at her face and say, " I'M QUITTING"
But sadly, these sort of scene only happens in the head, never reality.
I think the most drastic thing I'd do is just walking out of the store. hahahaha.
What a sucker.

If.. I was still in secondary sch. It'd be my first day at sch today!
I.. miss sch. 8(

And, DOMO, if youre reading this, can we meet up soon, pls? I feel like telling you alot of things. hahahaha