Sometimes I don't knw why ppl do what they do.
Anddd, I feel like doing smth impulsive tmr except that I think when I get up tmr.. This feeling will go away.
Just like how I change my mind abt this that everything.
Haha ok maybe I'd go to dempsey!

Omg I felt smth on my tattoo just now when I scratched it. Ok I dont care, I am waiting for a friend to finish her cig thats taking forever, which reminds me, I still got a pack I've yet to finish.

I started off today with..
A change of mind and one of my not so last confession. Headed off to be Suwati, laughed at myself for alighting at the wrong stop. But its ok.. Cos I had more time to talk to someone who always catch me anywhere but home.

I'm off to bed. Need to be awake in 6hours time!

Walking down memory lane

Then and there. Nothing else mattered.

When I'm good to go, I'm good to go

Just not now when there's still that bit.

I'm glad I spent abt an hour or two talking to a friend earlier.
I probably didn't make any sense in the things I said to her but she made the most sense in anything else I've ever heard or it could also be what I secretly wanted to hear.

Fully awake, fully aware

O-right. Maybe I'd head down to gardens l8r to visit Ry

You either get it or you don't

Are there any nice movies?
Cigarettes and running don't really go together ..
The grass grower was ready to look for another location
I don't really want sch to start no matter how boring hols are
Monopoly is so boring, it should be destroyed
I am going to look for shoes again
And then the girl that sat by the fence came by to play
I don't knw if I should go to Zouk or Home
Let's go hunt for ice cream ;)
I am going to change my playlist
Almost died while we tried
You were... We were..
I need to talk to D properly soon
How's the desert anyway?
I feel like watching shows
Oh, how I've...
Fuck it. Don't even bother.

An exception

Eme came over and made a fool out of ourselves infront of my lappy.
Whoo ytd night's slp was (Y) Ok not really but in comparison to the previous nights, (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

"haha no, i dont think you are. honestly sometimes i think you mean something but idk if you mean what i think you mean because its difficult to read you"

Conclusion

After tuning into the discussion first thing in the morning, I decided I dislike Australia.

You. Me. We? Think too much

This is really quite bad, I couldnt get to slp till it was abt quarter to 3.
And when it was at 5, I kept waking up at 20mins interval.
Got up at 8 for a while to knw some 'news' my friend wasn't excited abt.... Then at 0950 I officially woke up.
Ok I actually feel like slping again cos I'm really quite tired, I haven't been slping properly for the past few days.
But my dad just decided to fry smth and my room being next to the kitchen... I feel like I'm the fried dish. My whole room smells like it. Eew.


Feel like doing some random picture post. And I shall!

I don't really knw why I care

I LOVE YOU EME

I don't think I will ever jump off a building if I ever try to commit suicide. I nearly died trying to balance on a ladder while cleaning the ceiling fan today.
And it didn't help that my ipod started playing those cranky songs meant for everything else but balancing. Can't balance on a ladder, talk abt jumping off a 21storey high building... I think the anxiety on the way up will alr wanna kill me sia.

SO Dempsey and Udders with Steph was successful.
Headed down to happppy dazeeeeeeeee to meet the rest.
Then I cannot rmb what happened and now I'm home.
Work at ECP tmr.. Hope it rains!

Retrace

I spent my night trying to fall aslp, again.
Suwati.. Dempsey (finally!) l8r

I don't knw if it was my coma ytd afternoon that I couldnt't get to slp last night, and when I finally did, I woke up shortly after.
And I give up trying to slp after trying for the past 3hours.
I hope my sister would want to go Dempsey.... Umm.
That girl needs some ice cream to cheer up.


Ytd wasn't such a bad day.......
My fav fish (hahaha) told me she'd be coming back in Apr!!

I deleted the previous post bcos it was.... Stupid.
Smth was just wrong with me. But everything got better when I got up from my coma (my mom had to shake me to wake me, believe it or not)

I feel like buying shoes. And more shoesssss.
Should I dye my hair?
Ok nvm, dempsey tmr!

Should I move to lj!

Ytd was great, we looked so happy even in the pictures.
Too many to put it here bcos it was all in burst mode.

Ok, heading to Cityhall soon to meet Steph!

Young Folks

Wha I'm kinda addicted to that song.
Whoever thought the previous post was by me should shoot him/herself.

My parents are back! I don't knw what happened but I hugged my father when I saw him as if they disappeared for a month.
And.. I almost forgot how it is like to have my mom back in the house.
I don't like it when she starts @$(#()% me in the morning but I still like the fact that she's back..... To wash my clothes. Hahaha I'm kidding.

Did I tell you that I had dinner with my brother and his boyfriend on Sunday?
It's my first time actually getting to knw The boyfriend properly and actually have dinner Together.
Maybe I'd see myself in California (or issit?) attending their wedding.
Ok........ Let me see, I'm alr the worst sister, I don't want to be the worst friend.
So I will get my butt moving!

D, I really hope you'd come back :(

Dear diary,

I am the worst host on earth. I refuse to walk to the bank with Eme
I just called my guest annoying. I am so annoying.
I love to be kao pei.

I am going to cry a river. Viva la vida!
Charissa is making me hear a song, guitar heroes's cheers are playing in the background, the wind is blowing............... it's cold & bleak.

Life is such a bore. I can't wait for tuesday night when boys over flowers & Gossip girls epi 18 comes out yay!

^^v starlight. How bleak is my life I am munching on museli like a hamster. I'm a hamster, I'm a brown hamster. ^^ ^^ ^^

I hate my life it is boring -_____________________-
I am going to do a strip tease for charissa now bye

My friends are over... Playing GH.
They were hungry so I made sandwich for them but when I brought it out for them to eat, they ignored me twice altogether.
bird is playing guitar hero right now. SHE RESEMBLES ONE OF THOSE AHBENGS IN THE ARCADES. MEHhahahahhaha!!!

My first picture post!!!!

This is what happens when yr parents are away in Genting

Just got home from Zouk, saw some familiar faces.
Can't stomach how self-centred you really are.
Ok maybe I'm self-centred too for thinking you're thinking too much of yrself
Whatever, once twice was enough. Don't need more.
Suwati l8r... Omg what was I thinking.

Hi D, I'm so sorry I didn't reply yr last text! Was working..
Hope to see you soon though :)

K, I'm insane for coming on. I'm fucking tired, I need rest.
No more clubbinggggggg till my birthday, joy.

In my dreams,

I saw a girl with the prettiest smile but I don't rmb seeing her anywhere.

I feel like... Doing.. Going somewhere tonight. I wonder if anyone wants to go with meee.
MY SISTER GOT A MACBOOK!!

My stomach is churning like mad. And when I mean mad, it is freaking mad.
You see, all thanks to my friends, namely Steph and Zoe, I was kinda gone last night.
All I needed was One more drink to have me going, gone.
And now you can call me smelly or whatever bcos I am still in the exact same clothes I wore last night.(But I reckon I still smell quite good, the perfume is still on me with no ciggies smell) I slept straight away after going online for 4mins.
I think I'm quite smart too y'knw? I went and eat prata/murtabak with lotsa curry after puking.
Even on normal days, I can't take that much spice.
Smart, smart.

So now two friends are over. One of them is slping on my couch now, how cute.
Oh it's going to rain!

Yeh I'm probably not used to the change.. But I'd get around.
I think I'm going somewhr again next week.
Hopefully hopefully its not that expensive cos supply is running low.
I PASSED MY EXAMS!
I fared worse but I'm still happy cos I don't need to take any supp paper.
I think I'm a sucker bcos now even I can't take my words seriously.

K the long awaited Thursday is here!

Will you be the one that keep me rooted to the ground, stop me before it gets too late?

I'm starting to think that.. The beliefs (believes?)/values I used to hold are slowly fading away. It's not a good sign bcos if it is, I don't like who I'm becoming into.

I'm trying to make the least noise so as not to disturb V. She's wrapped up like a bazhang slping at that corner of my bed.
Quite happy, I finally changed my bed sheet today and packed my room. And there's a tv and dvd player in my room now. Yay, I can finally have movie/series show marathons with Emeeeeeee or anybody.
It's funny that contacts I talk to once in a blue moon will suddenly talk to me bcos of my pm. It's from that Korean (I made a mistake) song. Eh it's quite addictive, give it a try and listen.
I want nobody nobody but youuuuuu hahaha

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GH for most parts of today, I finally cut my hair!
My sister is desperately happy (yes desperately) for Thurs.
Feel like they're going for some match making session.
I wanted to blog abt smth but with them distracting me so much I can't concentrate.

Eme looks so cute trying to play the drums and for once, she looks harmless.
Sharm's over and now they're all singing to Livin' On A Prayer including my mom.
I'm laughing at them tell me they're Bon Jovi.
Hahahahahha sometimes I feel like I'm in a circus.

On days like these

"I want nobody nobody but you"
No it don't mean anything. It's just a jap gay song that I overheard in Bkk wherever I went and a new song that I'm partially hooked onto.
Thanks ah Eme

I wonder what I should do for my 18th bday. Should I have a party or should I just skip that and.. I don't knw. But firstly, I........... Need to cut my hair. If I was stick thin, there wouldn't be any difference between the mop and I.

Happy 21st!

It's my sister's 21st bday today.. Happy bday, you.
Hahahaha I'm sorry I knw you really dont like but you seriously do look like her.
Pls don't hate me for that, I've been a good sister to you 0:) (Even though I didnt open the door for you at 4am. But hello? I was slping!)
Zouk was cancelled bcos everyone was feeling tired.
So now I'm bored, msn's being a real bitch (again).
I wanted to watch HSM3 except that the disc I bought from BKK.. turned out to be The Sopranos (Wtf).
Ok maybe I'd just watch online instead..

P.S. Play on Thurs, anyone?
P.P.S. I need an additonal wiimote
P.P.P.S I dont even knw if this p.p.p.s exists. Omg I'm going to work at a skate shop tmr!
(I just realized I have alot of brackets in this post)