the shade

With eternal love, the stars above
All there is and ever was
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all, I want it all
A blade of grass, a grain of sand
The moonlit sea, to hold your hand
I want it all, I want it all
I want it all, I want it all

We got the sunshine
We got the shade
We got temptation
We got it made
We got rewarded
We got refused
We got distorted
We got confused

2016

Happy new year!

I spent my new year's eve working for the major part of the day and then celebrating the rest of the evening at my brother's place.

For a moment, Singapore did not feel as dreary as it did. And I think it was finally okay to be back - with the people whom wanted me around and likewise. There was a little regret when I counted down the new year, where I did not wish my parents in person. Maybe I'm just being extra sticky or something, but I have this innate feeling of just wanting to spend as much time as I can. To the the point that I think my mother probably thinks I am a little too annoying.

If I am not wondering how much time I have left with my parents on the forefront, then that thought is always lingering at the back of my head.  It's bad to use someone else's lesson learnt as my own, but that's how it is. Life has always been that fragile but I don't think it really occurred to me until it happened to someone close to me so I don't think I wanna live any life that's without my parents' presence.

New year's resolution? I don't know. I jokingly mentioned I wanted to poop and I did. Hahahaha.

- find a job that I like
- be more open to my parents and patient and kind
- be honest with myself
- don't be too hard on myself.

Maybe I just don't wanna be alone anymore, I don't know.