Highly favoured and deeply loved!

Oh but yes, we were a little over-dramatic since whatever I was being angry about did not actually... come to fruition.

Why am I here?

That's easy - my diary pages are running out and I am babysitting a dog and I also have work to do.

The questions I always ask myself here is - have I changed? Since it always takes a little while before I update the space again.

3 months is a long time for anyone to make new habits. For me, I don't think I have changed any of my old habits but I feel like I have changed the way I look at life.

It wasn't an instantaneous event - in fact, it has taken all my life seeing as I have been a believer all my life.

Believer is such a funny word, is it? I feel like half the time we KNOW that there is a God, but the other half we are all just convincing ourselves to believe. After all, if we really ever did believe, then why would we all still be trying so hard?

That's where I said I felt like I have changed myself from the inside out the past 3 months. I used to know that God is for me, I used to know that He loves me and He will always be there. I am the prodigal son and He is my Father.

Did I believe it? Did I truly believe it?

No, I didn't. It's not easy because it's in human nature to just do everything ourselves and coin the term "trust no one".

So, have I changed in the outward sense? I don't think so - not really. But I have changed the way I feel and the way I react and I think that's the first step to bigger changes.

Aren't we being a little too over-dramatic?