A leopard never changes its spots

It's just a different person each time but it's the same cycle.

Can't believe I can get hooked on HSM songs.....
Haha ok whatever.
Happy halloween everyone!

This is going to make me look stupid but anw, it was really stupid.
I thought lab sessions had smth to do with chopping/ dissecting..
In the end, it was actually COMPUTER LAB.
Ohgod.
Too much GG.

I've got sch.
Dread sch.
Lab sessions. What's lab sessions?
Will I get to dissect anything........

Hahaha I still cant believe I'm learning psychology when I'm in Culinary.
Maybe I need to understand the feelings of food...

Hooked onto neopets.
This is crazy.
Oh my star has been good.

This kind of thing die also must blog


leflash says:
i like fantasiesss

Have been playing neopets for the past 2 nights
6000+ np alr and my acc got frozen bcos I stupidly logged into my acc using 2 different internet browsers.
Like one was logged in using google chrome and the other was logged in using internet explorer.
6000+ np gone like that......................
Now I need to wait for hours again to play Wheel of Excitement.


I feel like I might fall sick.
I had blocked nose last night and I'm sneezing nonstop now


It's a Sunday afternoon.
I've been seeing V for the past 3days.
Told you that there was smth good from all of that bcos now I am hanging out with all of you guys more often than ever.

aihtync:] : HI haha I am not in french class! I crashed yr lecture and yes I knw I took up yr space. Sorry!
mycalendargirl: HAHAHA I can try? But I might be very wrong in my pronunciation and all that.
matt/eme: Yeah I get what you mean... haha! See you soon k! maybe this sat :D

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I came back not that long ago and lied down on my bed.
My mom joined me. I told her abt what I did today..
She was quite upset that I took some form of alcohol even though it was just red wine.
She went on abt brain damage and all that.
Been thru this kind of situation one too many time, I remained calm or rather I had no other choice bcos I was rather tired.
We remained silent for a while before she said smth abt my pastor mentioning abt how we should honour our parents.....
Hahaha I asked her to stop beating round the bush and just go straight to the point..

We talked and I guess I somehow knw what she's thinking now?
I told her abt my dad. She knws that he is always wanting to talk to us and it Always happen at the wrong time. I mentioned abt.. how he always talked abt how he's not going to be here forever and I hafta be sensible.
He told me all that when I was barely 12. I rmb how I'd always hold back my tears when he talked abt how he's not going to be there.. I ended up praying every night then that my parents will live forever with good health.
I don't knw if it's just an excuse but I feel that that's the reason why I don't want to talk to my dad now whenever he calls me.
Don't knw how that conversation ended up with me rolling on to her and snuggling up to her while she kinda held me.
It was funny bcos I looked at her wondering how come she was flat chested.
Then I asked if she was wearing bra. HAHA SHE SHY AND TURN AROUND DONT WANNA FACE ME ALR OK. CANT BELIEVE MY MOTHER DID THAT, I JUST KEPT LAUGHING.

...
I just read what I typed a few sentences above, it's as if I'm talking abt a lover. HAHA it's just my mom ok. I'm not into incest.. Even though we were all talking abt it earlier.
Imagine if I kissed my brother. Omg EEW?

Time passed really fast today..
I was supposed to go to sch but I skipped it and headed out for a movie.
It was a morbid show with a crude sense of humour.
Headed down to quarubar after dinner.
It was good? With the liveband and all that. But I honestly can't hear what C was saying, and I had to make up half of what she said.

Had fun and now I'm really really sleepy.

Have a conclusion that 11:11 wishes absolutely dont come true at all.
Even if it did, it'd just be taken away from you after that.

(Note: just a conclusion)

I am so proud of myself having being able to drag myself out of bed and to sch despite only having... <6 hours of slp.
I think I'm having insomnia.
I tried to slp at... 1230 and finally got to slp at only 130.
And I feel like I'm having anxiety attacks (ok la not that serious), I keep waking up.
I thought I heard my phone make a beep sound..
I got up earlier than the time I was supposed to.
Oh but my star stayed up with me longer last night, it did not even collapse even when it was morning

Psych and French today.
Im going to take colour and composition as an additional subject?

Im currently at Esplanade library, waiting for my sister to come meet me.
My stomach is growling like fuck and I'm quite sure she'd only be here at 8.

:(

They say..... Food is the way to a man's heart
How abt songs?

Feels like I understand now.

Ok, pls pls plzz pray that I will drag myself out of bed ltr and.
Go to sch.

To those that hate the rain, it's my fault.
Heaven is crying for me bcos I'm so sad that sch has started.
I'm sorry.

As if I really needed to know that this is all about jinxing it, my friend brought that up earlier.
And then they talked abt karma.....
Hahaha, thanks.

My parents are going Genting again tonight. For once, I want to go.
I'm going to walk away now.

We were talking abt karma a few days back.
The more I think, the more I start to agree that this is all just karma.
And the more I think, the more I start to see that.. I probably jinxed it.
And this is so sad, bcos when you're happy you can't say it out otherwise you might just jinx it.
It's like... Bad to feel happy.
Bad bad bad.
I should just feel sad now.
Then maybe I'd jinx it and feel happy.
Make sense? HAHA!


Haiya I'd quit thinking so much and just run till my legs break. It's halfway there.
Schhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :(

I didn't knw kindergarten teaches you that.. if you're a girl, you wear dress. If you're a boy, you wear shorts.
My kindergarten teacher didn't teach me that and that's probably why I'm not as girly as I should be. Yes no? Haha
I can still rmb my mother being very angry and pulled me out of kindegarten bcos my teacher threw my book on the floor when all I did was, colouring the pictures.

Sch's really starting >:(
I'm going off to bed now.
And yeah, okay, I'd do what you say then.

Thinking it was the sound for the race to start, I charged.
I felt the adrenaline, thinking I was about to win since there were nobody else ahead, but no, I just had a false start.
And now I need to go back and start over.
I can't win, bcos the other is here longer hence more experience and knws how to go abt it.
And yet, I feel as though... If I don't move and stay put till the right time, I might just win after all.
Then again, I never get anything right.


My biological clock is still screwed.
Sch is starting on Monday and I'm so tempted to just skip sch alr :(

Met up with V, C and Vic at Cityhall.
I laughed till my legs turned jelly and squatted near the roadside just to laugh.
My chrysanthenum flower from V died tragically with no dignity left.
All the petals flew in all direction bcos we were busy smacking each other with it.
Even the stalk broke into 2.
Headed down to Frolick after dinner to sit there and type.
Eme came, played and I cycled the bicycle home.
I thought of all ways I could die while cycling.
And I think if I didn't watch out for this retarded taxi driver, he would have freaking bang into me.
Fucker, That particular way of dying wasn't in my list of possibilities.
Speaking of taxis, I lost my ezlink card in one of them ytd.
Bleeeeeeeeeeee-ak.


I shouldn't have let my sister sleep in the same room as me.
Her snore can kill. Maybe I should kick her and let her roll off the bed...
Then again it won't work. If anybody were to roll off, it'd be me since I'm not slping next to the wall.
And if anybody were to be injured tonight, it'd be me once again bcos I'm slping on the bed that is halfway to doom.

My star had a longer life last night. It stayed till I got up and left my room.
Hopefully it never drops ^^




Bcos the only thing I thought I got it right, it went wrong.

I was afraid that if I hadn't left so quickly.. You would have saw right thru me.

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Hihi, I woke up today thinking that my feet was shining.
Hahaha no it was actually just the star that dropped from the ceiling and near my feet.
So anw, I was so excited abt it last night, I was showing it to everyone that talked to me.
I managed to stick it back up just now, I hope it won't drop again bcos I spent the last half an hour jumping up and down on my bed trying to stick it onto the ceiling.
You knw how tiring it is? I knw I run alot but jumping up and down at this hour when you should be slping is not that easy.

Fucking internet taking so long to load, I'd just go off to bed alr.
Goodnight world.

I've got.. so much things to say but I won't.

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Oh, sch's starting next week.
Got my timetable.. It doesn't suck that much.
Quite happy with it. I already decided what days I intend to skip.
Ok wait, I shouldn't.

I can't describe how today started.
I woke up at 630 and then 830 then 1030.
Headed out to run and bumped into an Indian policeman..
It was all weird, weird weird.
Anw my name is Beth and I study Mass Comm in Tp.


Ikea with C today.
I wasn't in the mood to go out actually but, I knew if I didn't take a breather outside... I would feel worse.
So! I went and tried my first meatball.
It was good hanging out with her. Don't knw what the hell we were doing except laughing over retarded things.. Whatever it is,
I bought a star :D


leflash says:
sometimes i feel you should just get hair extensions
leflash says:
and get a tutu

Well, you caught me the moment I was off guard.

"For the sake of your own heart, give her up?"


I probably jinxed it.

:S

and when you finally get what you've always wanted, suddenly it stops being important all together.
what if i'm like that with you too? and then one day you're going to say you love me and i'm going to walk away like it didn't matter.

-Author Unknown

So.... I did not slp for the whole of ytd night.
Rushed down to ECP and tried to catch the sunrise.
Everywhere around us brightened up but there weren't any yolk to be seen.
I resorted to draw one on the sand but.. it was hopeless.
I was helpless bcos it wasn't according to plan.
And, there were the china ppl posing for the camera.
Probably having a photoshoot for the next China's FHM.
Had Macs breakfast after a longggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg time.
Cycled down to Changi, and watched a few airplanes go by.
Cycled back and cabbed home.

Hmmm... honestly? I like days like that. Even though I only took a very very short nap before heading out again.

It's wrong of me to think I can keep you but... :S Haha
I am going off to bed now.
Let me adjust my biological clock back slowly..
Soon, I'd be back to normal.
Like how I used to be.
Like how We used to be.

Ok, so I heard.. that I'm with Weedy now.
Let me make this clear, we're absolutely Not together.
OK?
Ok good.


I'm deciding whr I should get my tattoo and what it should be.
I've got a few ideas.. but I'm still contemplating.

My parents are going Genting tmr.. again.
Don't knw whats so nice abt there but whatever.

Trimmed my hair today with Ann.
Made mooncake earlier and it sucked.
Reason behind it?
D said it was bcos life sucked.


Hmm...
Although this holidays was my most drama one, from that blog to this and that, I'm happy that it all happened. If it hadn't, I won't be talking and getting closer to friends I never thought I would when sch ended.
So despite all the drama shit, I guess I still have smth to thank for?

^^

I had the weirdest dream last night and I woke up thinking I really had that msg and checked my phone immediately.
So bleak, I feel like I'm getting confused of which is real and which is not

Got up, headed down to ECP.
Surprised C's mom.. had picnic.
Happy birthday Aunty Anne!

I've got work later..
And, I sincerely hope nobody vomits.
I'm abit tired today so if you step on the wrong foot, you're dead.


I've got so much qns in my head.. like..
WHY ARE THERE FREAKING ANTS IN MY ROOM.