2008? 2009?

2008 has been rather good to me.
It's the year that I came to realize that the 4 friends that I went to jail (sch la haha) with, are friends that are there for me no matter what happens.
It's the year that I'm now good friends with ppl I didn't think I would talk again.
It's the year I found new friends that I didn't think I would click initially.

It's the year I found you too.


Now, if there's a new year resolution I should make, it'd be to stay out of my shell.

Not emo

Today is just bleak.
I went from being the latest to arrive in class to the only failure, to nearly spraining my ankle just bcos I wasn't focusing whr I was walking.
I found myself looking at my watch then my phone and my watch then my phone more than 10 times.
Now, the only thing that I'm looking forward to tonight is.. The chinese show.


I knw I told you not to but I just wish you could have given me some answers.
Bcos this thing you're doing... It's never going to end.
Unless..

All I'm asking now is for you to..

Think properly.

I had a weird dream abt rats

And.. I got bitten really really hard by one

Yay D is back and I've been meeting her 2 days in a row. Today will be the 3rd.
Did I mention that I did not stay over at my own slumber party that I hosted with Eme in the end.. Yeah they called me sucker.
Visited Ann's jail last night with D and we had highly alcoholic eggnog.
Played wii and then D's eye started getting infected.
(Note to Ann: start cleaning up yr rooooom)

Sch's starting soon and I'm really behind in my painting which I intend to finish tmr.
I'm going to be Mariah at my brother's place first.
Dont laugh, my 4hours pay is most probably the same as yr 8 hours.

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Why do I have the feeling that smth like that happened while you were with me.
Y'knw, it'd be easier if you said you were just playing.

Merry Xmas- I thought today was Friday

For the past few Christmas, I'd get up the earliest in my family and wake everyone up to open up the presents.
This year... We opened it at 12midnight. My whole family plus my brother's gf.
It was fun, and the Christmas spirit finally arrived.

Dinner started at like 10plus, and we ate till 1120 then I played Wii with my brother-in-law.
I am so happy my itouch isn't naked anymoreeeeeeee


OH D CAME BACK ALR!!!!!
SHE CALLED ME WHEN SHE CAME BACK.
She was in the same flight as my brother-in-law. OK I am going to just call him bil. So tiring to type out his whole entire.. I dont knw.

Later... I'd be going to Bukit Timah Hill with Eme and maybe watch Twilight and have our slumber party.
You see, I may have been upset but I've got my family and friends that make up for it.
In fact, they make up for more.

And yes, Steph, I'd try to listen to your advice.
I hope you're not dead bcos you're not replying me online.

So anyway, I hope all of you will enjoy this day.
Merry Xmas!

So sorry but this is like the 3rd post for today.
It's been raining since morning and I'm so bored waiting for time to pass.
I was feeling abit ------- (I dont knw how to describe) till I read ry's blog.
Fucking funny haha ok maybe it's just me.
AND RY, OMG I HAD INDIGESTION FROM EATING THE FOOD LAST NIGHT.
zzzzz

I was so irritated with my brother picking on presents... Then later he said, I am very lucky this year.
Ha ha ha ha ha.

Ok, happy christmas eve! I think I'm going to flood my blog.

On a Christmas eve,

Steph ♥ says:
OK GO CHANGE YOUR FONT TO GREEN!!!
hurry!
Birdney Spears says:
OK
Steph ♥ says:
done?
Birdney Spears says:
is yrs red
HAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHA

Thats us trying to feel all christmas-y
I'm sorry but even though I've got quite alot of activities that I'm looking forward to, I still can't feel the christmas spirit.
It must be the rain.
So rain pls go away, so I can go for a run to clear my mind.

1 more thing to look forward to in the next 48 hours..

Cos,
In less than 24 hours..
D IS COMING BACK!!!!!!

This time last year, I was most probably working.
I wonder what will happen next year cos I am certain I didn't expect anything like that last year.
Anw...
I've got Bleakmas l8r (which I'm so dead for bcos I am hell sure I'd be recognized almost immediately), my own family one's tmr and slumber party the day after.
3 parties in a row..
Christmas still Is my most favorite time of the year.

Eme, are we still going to watch twilight/yes man and trek bukit timah hill!!!!!!
Better say yes.
If not.... Haha

Decode

Then again, if you meant everything you said.. I wonder how you're feeling.
Empty?
I'm starting to believe now that I've been living a lie.

One week ago, you were here with me.
Today, we're as good as strangers.

I understand how it feels to have what was held so dear to the heart taken away just like that.
I fight for what I want but I'm not the type that will ask you back if you're alr someone else's.

So what if you said I made this different.
The thought of what might have happened when I received a msg at 6 was enough to kill me.
I'm sure you meant everything you said to me but, that was then. Right?
Ppl change, feelings change.
Have no doubt, you're still different to me in every way you could be.
You're sorry.
And I'm sorry too.

I might cry but, how will you knw?
Now that you two can finally be together, just stay.
At least, for her sake, be decisive and don't sway.

All too familiar...

You see I can't say I knew or expected this to happen bcos I really really didn't see this coming.
It was only for that moment that I foresaw what might happen and felt that way.


Life isn't bleak.
I just make it to be. So I will not.
My laptop is doing fine now!
I am so happy.

Thank you to all that bothered to come for my party..
I'm so sorry for being sucha bad host.
And, happy bday Candice!
:)

I am very very very sad right now.
Cos it takes $800+++ to fix my laptop.
Anybody willing to donate money to me?

Wtf?

I threw my phone on my bed, it bounced off my laptop to my wall and landed somewhr.
Ok I don't really care abt the phone bcos it's just a house phone....
But now... My laptop screen cracked. No not cracked.
It just has this weird image.
Omg... It was returned to me not That long ago from repair.
Now I'm going to have to send back for repair. Again.

OMG WHY SO DUMB!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Hi all,

She won't be around bcos she's going away for a holiday in Europe.
Skype? Thats if she brings her laptop and even then, doubt she'd be skyping on a Christmas day in Europe.
I would gladly fly over if I have money to buy the return air ticket.

I should prolly go learn acrobatics, or whatever is that called, from those China ppl that has turned Orchard road into a freak pasar malam.
Bcos then, I might have a higher possibility to fit into her pocket. Ok la don't be so ambitious.. Luggage?

What a cold... Hari Raya Haji? Ok scratch that. What a cold monday.

I ate 2wedges of papaya ytd which probably led to the visit to the toilet (not to pee la dammit) 4times today.
I ate so much raisins in the morning, I had an indigestion.
I feel an impending stomach ache now.

> : (

I want..

Boxers
Berms
Shoes (slip ons.. sneakers..)
Slippers
Shirts, T-shirts..
Skin for itouchhhh


It feels like most don't really have a whole long wishlist bcos they alr have what they want, or can get it themselves or smth.
I can't think of anything else bcos.. I have almost everything well except one last thing.

If anybody can think of a way (and it actually works) that I can spend at least one second (cos I don't ask for that much) of christmas day with my girlfriend, I will gladly give up everything I asked above and will give you anything that you want and I can afford.
Really.

Irony

I had dinner earlier with my family plus my brother's girlfriend.
The whole dinner felt like an irony.
And I don't knw if I was being sarcastic without the intention of being that way...
Dinner was good nonetheless.
I never laughed so much at a dinner table with my family, it was an unintended joke.
I'm getting really good at self-entertaining.

Christmas... is coming. And I don't knw how it's going to be.
I wonder if the difference starts from me cos it feels different somehow.
I can't quite put my finger at whether it's good or bad.

Ok, I still have tests coming up.
I NEED TO STUDY.
C'mon, motivate me abit.

ANW to those that asked me abt my wishlist.. Hang on for abit. I'd post it up.. Tmr.

Thats my girl

Things are mostly still the same... Except that now whenever someone asks me, 'Are you guys together now?' I don't have to go one big round trying to explain the status then. I can just answer straight to the point now.
And, I can't ask for more.


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