2016

Happy new year!

I spent my new year's eve working for the major part of the day and then celebrating the rest of the evening at my brother's place.

For a moment, Singapore did not feel as dreary as it did. And I think it was finally okay to be back - with the people whom wanted me around and likewise. There was a little regret when I counted down the new year, where I did not wish my parents in person. Maybe I'm just being extra sticky or something, but I have this innate feeling of just wanting to spend as much time as I can. To the the point that I think my mother probably thinks I am a little too annoying.

If I am not wondering how much time I have left with my parents on the forefront, then that thought is always lingering at the back of my head.  It's bad to use someone else's lesson learnt as my own, but that's how it is. Life has always been that fragile but I don't think it really occurred to me until it happened to someone close to me so I don't think I wanna live any life that's without my parents' presence.

New year's resolution? I don't know. I jokingly mentioned I wanted to poop and I did. Hahahaha.

- find a job that I like
- be more open to my parents and patient and kind
- be honest with myself
- don't be too hard on myself.

Maybe I just don't wanna be alone anymore, I don't know.