"I kinda wish I never met her then I wouldnt knw what I was missing"

Whoo!!!!!!

I am incredibly tired but I am also quite happy bcos I finally got to knw why I was feeling the way I was.
And, I decided that on my bday, I will go buy toto.
Hahaha ok guitar heroes!!!

Quite funny, my sister's phone got ran over by a car.

"i kinda hate the whole i feel smthg about you but im not suppose to feeling"

1500 miles

I think too much, I think too much, I think too much.

A day late

It comes to a point whr I see 11:11 and I don't wish for the same thing anymore.

I was feeling so slpy, I was typing gibberish online so my friend decided to count the cycles of my slp cos I am sooo slpy.
So apparently, we slp in cycles of 90mins. Let's say you fell aslp at 10, one cycle would probably be from..10-1130. Breaking that cycle, it'd make you feel very tired which was what happened to me.

Do you feel happy you learnt smth new today? hahahaha
Good morning! (I nearly typed happy bday)

Straight to the point

This post shall be as straight forward as it can be;
Maybe the next time you see me, my hair colour will be different.
I don't feel like talking anymore bcos my english is degrading with every passing day.
I don't knw what I'm doing tmr! I don't feel like cleaning up with the staff all arnd..
Play next week! Anybody wants to go?
I wonder if this is straightforward enuff.

Today, my mom talked to me abt someone. I didn't believe that she could be doing that. Anybody could be doing that but just not her. No, not her. It's too close for comfort.

Wednesday I'm in love!

Saw the cutest thing alive ytd, they look better than chihuahuas.
Steph you get a chihuahua, I get that white one.
Cool, deal?

I predict today's going to be quite a lazy day. .. I still want my vans shoes leh.

Scratch that, MY IPOD IS WORKING NOW!!!!!!!!!
But that means, I don't have any more reasons to drink 10tequila shots to get rid of my sadness.

How can you still love me when you're out to get me!?

I don't care how limited my vocabulary is but I am very happy and very sad right now.
I am happy bcos I went on a spending spree.
I am sad bcos my ipod fucking hell died and I need to down 10tequila shots just bcos I came online.
No.. You don't love me. Hahahahaha

Good to go

I woke up feeling quite blah today, not enough slp and my mom constantly asking me qns in the morning. ... Actually nah, it was just me.
Haha ok! I headed down to Dempsey to visit sit entertain Steph haha (which failed bcos I am a bad entertainer) I went to queensway and got my shoes, Vivo.. Nearly walked out of the store with an overpriced shirt.
Eh I don't knw why I even bothered typing that chunk but I'm tooo lazy to press backspace.
Tmr!!! I am going to wake up early, head out for a run, Vivoooo for lunch and then holland Vvvvvv (I think?).


Hahahahahhaha I have a friend that just decided to jump onto the HSM bandwagon. Ok, not really. But she's watching HSM3 now.

Does anyone have the slightest idea if the Apr fool's virus is for real!?
This is a really jumbled up post.
HAPPY BDAY TANIA!
And, Happy Apr's Fool btw.
Somone just told me that this girl from my sec sch died. Best part is, I believed.

Sometimes I don't knw why ppl do what they do.
Anddd, I feel like doing smth impulsive tmr except that I think when I get up tmr.. This feeling will go away.
Just like how I change my mind abt this that everything.
Haha ok maybe I'd go to dempsey!

Omg I felt smth on my tattoo just now when I scratched it. Ok I dont care, I am waiting for a friend to finish her cig thats taking forever, which reminds me, I still got a pack I've yet to finish.

I started off today with..
A change of mind and one of my not so last confession. Headed off to be Suwati, laughed at myself for alighting at the wrong stop. But its ok.. Cos I had more time to talk to someone who always catch me anywhere but home.

I'm off to bed. Need to be awake in 6hours time!

Walking down memory lane

Then and there. Nothing else mattered.

When I'm good to go, I'm good to go

Just not now when there's still that bit.

I'm glad I spent abt an hour or two talking to a friend earlier.
I probably didn't make any sense in the things I said to her but she made the most sense in anything else I've ever heard or it could also be what I secretly wanted to hear.

Fully awake, fully aware

O-right. Maybe I'd head down to gardens l8r to visit Ry

You either get it or you don't

Are there any nice movies?
Cigarettes and running don't really go together ..
The grass grower was ready to look for another location
I don't really want sch to start no matter how boring hols are
Monopoly is so boring, it should be destroyed
I am going to look for shoes again
And then the girl that sat by the fence came by to play
I don't knw if I should go to Zouk or Home
Let's go hunt for ice cream ;)
I am going to change my playlist
Almost died while we tried
You were... We were..
I need to talk to D properly soon
How's the desert anyway?
I feel like watching shows
Oh, how I've...
Fuck it. Don't even bother.

An exception

Eme came over and made a fool out of ourselves infront of my lappy.
Whoo ytd night's slp was (Y) Ok not really but in comparison to the previous nights, (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)

"haha no, i dont think you are. honestly sometimes i think you mean something but idk if you mean what i think you mean because its difficult to read you"

Conclusion

After tuning into the discussion first thing in the morning, I decided I dislike Australia.

You. Me. We? Think too much

This is really quite bad, I couldnt get to slp till it was abt quarter to 3.
And when it was at 5, I kept waking up at 20mins interval.
Got up at 8 for a while to knw some 'news' my friend wasn't excited abt.... Then at 0950 I officially woke up.
Ok I actually feel like slping again cos I'm really quite tired, I haven't been slping properly for the past few days.
But my dad just decided to fry smth and my room being next to the kitchen... I feel like I'm the fried dish. My whole room smells like it. Eew.


Feel like doing some random picture post. And I shall!

I don't really knw why I care

I LOVE YOU EME

I don't think I will ever jump off a building if I ever try to commit suicide. I nearly died trying to balance on a ladder while cleaning the ceiling fan today.
And it didn't help that my ipod started playing those cranky songs meant for everything else but balancing. Can't balance on a ladder, talk abt jumping off a 21storey high building... I think the anxiety on the way up will alr wanna kill me sia.

SO Dempsey and Udders with Steph was successful.
Headed down to happppy dazeeeeeeeee to meet the rest.
Then I cannot rmb what happened and now I'm home.
Work at ECP tmr.. Hope it rains!

Retrace

I spent my night trying to fall aslp, again.
Suwati.. Dempsey (finally!) l8r

I don't knw if it was my coma ytd afternoon that I couldnt't get to slp last night, and when I finally did, I woke up shortly after.
And I give up trying to slp after trying for the past 3hours.
I hope my sister would want to go Dempsey.... Umm.
That girl needs some ice cream to cheer up.


Ytd wasn't such a bad day.......
My fav fish (hahaha) told me she'd be coming back in Apr!!

I deleted the previous post bcos it was.... Stupid.
Smth was just wrong with me. But everything got better when I got up from my coma (my mom had to shake me to wake me, believe it or not)

I feel like buying shoes. And more shoesssss.
Should I dye my hair?
Ok nvm, dempsey tmr!

Should I move to lj!

Ytd was great, we looked so happy even in the pictures.
Too many to put it here bcos it was all in burst mode.

Ok, heading to Cityhall soon to meet Steph!

Young Folks

Wha I'm kinda addicted to that song.
Whoever thought the previous post was by me should shoot him/herself.

My parents are back! I don't knw what happened but I hugged my father when I saw him as if they disappeared for a month.
And.. I almost forgot how it is like to have my mom back in the house.
I don't like it when she starts @$(#()% me in the morning but I still like the fact that she's back..... To wash my clothes. Hahaha I'm kidding.

Did I tell you that I had dinner with my brother and his boyfriend on Sunday?
It's my first time actually getting to knw The boyfriend properly and actually have dinner Together.
Maybe I'd see myself in California (or issit?) attending their wedding.
Ok........ Let me see, I'm alr the worst sister, I don't want to be the worst friend.
So I will get my butt moving!

D, I really hope you'd come back :(

Dear diary,

I am the worst host on earth. I refuse to walk to the bank with Eme
I just called my guest annoying. I am so annoying.
I love to be kao pei.

I am going to cry a river. Viva la vida!
Charissa is making me hear a song, guitar heroes's cheers are playing in the background, the wind is blowing............... it's cold & bleak.

Life is such a bore. I can't wait for tuesday night when boys over flowers & Gossip girls epi 18 comes out yay!

^^v starlight. How bleak is my life I am munching on museli like a hamster. I'm a hamster, I'm a brown hamster. ^^ ^^ ^^

I hate my life it is boring -_____________________-
I am going to do a strip tease for charissa now bye

My friends are over... Playing GH.
They were hungry so I made sandwich for them but when I brought it out for them to eat, they ignored me twice altogether.
bird is playing guitar hero right now. SHE RESEMBLES ONE OF THOSE AHBENGS IN THE ARCADES. MEHhahahahhaha!!!

My first picture post!!!!

This is what happens when yr parents are away in Genting

Just got home from Zouk, saw some familiar faces.
Can't stomach how self-centred you really are.
Ok maybe I'm self-centred too for thinking you're thinking too much of yrself
Whatever, once twice was enough. Don't need more.
Suwati l8r... Omg what was I thinking.

Hi D, I'm so sorry I didn't reply yr last text! Was working..
Hope to see you soon though :)

K, I'm insane for coming on. I'm fucking tired, I need rest.
No more clubbinggggggg till my birthday, joy.

In my dreams,

I saw a girl with the prettiest smile but I don't rmb seeing her anywhere.

I feel like... Doing.. Going somewhere tonight. I wonder if anyone wants to go with meee.
MY SISTER GOT A MACBOOK!!

My stomach is churning like mad. And when I mean mad, it is freaking mad.
You see, all thanks to my friends, namely Steph and Zoe, I was kinda gone last night.
All I needed was One more drink to have me going, gone.
And now you can call me smelly or whatever bcos I am still in the exact same clothes I wore last night.(But I reckon I still smell quite good, the perfume is still on me with no ciggies smell) I slept straight away after going online for 4mins.
I think I'm quite smart too y'knw? I went and eat prata/murtabak with lotsa curry after puking.
Even on normal days, I can't take that much spice.
Smart, smart.

So now two friends are over. One of them is slping on my couch now, how cute.
Oh it's going to rain!

Yeh I'm probably not used to the change.. But I'd get around.
I think I'm going somewhr again next week.
Hopefully hopefully its not that expensive cos supply is running low.
I PASSED MY EXAMS!
I fared worse but I'm still happy cos I don't need to take any supp paper.
I think I'm a sucker bcos now even I can't take my words seriously.

K the long awaited Thursday is here!

Will you be the one that keep me rooted to the ground, stop me before it gets too late?

I'm starting to think that.. The beliefs (believes?)/values I used to hold are slowly fading away. It's not a good sign bcos if it is, I don't like who I'm becoming into.

I'm trying to make the least noise so as not to disturb V. She's wrapped up like a bazhang slping at that corner of my bed.
Quite happy, I finally changed my bed sheet today and packed my room. And there's a tv and dvd player in my room now. Yay, I can finally have movie/series show marathons with Emeeeeeee or anybody.
It's funny that contacts I talk to once in a blue moon will suddenly talk to me bcos of my pm. It's from that Korean (I made a mistake) song. Eh it's quite addictive, give it a try and listen.
I want nobody nobody but youuuuuu hahaha

-

GH for most parts of today, I finally cut my hair!
My sister is desperately happy (yes desperately) for Thurs.
Feel like they're going for some match making session.
I wanted to blog abt smth but with them distracting me so much I can't concentrate.

Eme looks so cute trying to play the drums and for once, she looks harmless.
Sharm's over and now they're all singing to Livin' On A Prayer including my mom.
I'm laughing at them tell me they're Bon Jovi.
Hahahahahha sometimes I feel like I'm in a circus.

On days like these

"I want nobody nobody but you"
No it don't mean anything. It's just a jap gay song that I overheard in Bkk wherever I went and a new song that I'm partially hooked onto.
Thanks ah Eme

I wonder what I should do for my 18th bday. Should I have a party or should I just skip that and.. I don't knw. But firstly, I........... Need to cut my hair. If I was stick thin, there wouldn't be any difference between the mop and I.

Happy 21st!

It's my sister's 21st bday today.. Happy bday, you.
Hahahaha I'm sorry I knw you really dont like but you seriously do look like her.
Pls don't hate me for that, I've been a good sister to you 0:) (Even though I didnt open the door for you at 4am. But hello? I was slping!)
Zouk was cancelled bcos everyone was feeling tired.
So now I'm bored, msn's being a real bitch (again).
I wanted to watch HSM3 except that the disc I bought from BKK.. turned out to be The Sopranos (Wtf).
Ok maybe I'd just watch online instead..

P.S. Play on Thurs, anyone?
P.P.S. I need an additonal wiimote
P.P.P.S I dont even knw if this p.p.p.s exists. Omg I'm going to work at a skate shop tmr!
(I just realized I have alot of brackets in this post)

Guess who!

Fake IDs, pretty boys, clothes, clothes and more clothes....
BKKKKK HERE I COME

"Hi ma, meet Grace"

Today morning was so sucky cos at 830, electricity from my house was cut off.
No leh, the monthly bills are being paid for. It's just them doing smth to smth.. and then at 1300, I realize.. No electricity= no power= no computer= no design
Holland V for tattoo was impromptuly changed back to the previous one that I went to.
V and C distracted me from the pain pretty well.
Can't believe I was abt to tell C.. "Omg I need to see you before I leave"

I'm currently at Starbucks with a bloodied white shirt waiting for the queen of crawlies. Ok la not that serious.. But the part whr my shoulder is at of the shirt has blood stains.
Not shiok that I have to sling my havarsack. Wonder how ppl hang it sometimes, we have 2 shoulders for a reason y'knw?

Shit time is running out, I still need to buy travel insurance, pack luggage, change money!?!?!?!?
But first of all, what am I going to say to my mom abt my new tat.
How abt...
"Hi ma, meet Grace"

Ytd was fun, still cannot really believe I got in.
But I should have waited cos now I'm having the.. partying-when-you're-sick syndrome. Which is, falling even sicker. Is there such a word?

Omg I need to pack my luggage!!!!

Nonono, this can't happen now

If sneezing and blowing my nose can make money, I'd be a billionaire.

What a small world

Not that I didn't knw that already, I just didn't realize that it would be That small.
I feel like everyone I want to talk to knows I need to study that's why they're not online or maybe it's also the fact that I am stuck at home with the need to study and the rest (except a poor soul who unfortunately has virus in her computer) are out having fun.
My room has a slping spell. I can't read my notes without having the urge to lie on my bed and slp............

Anyway, I knw hardly anyone reads this but I need opinions even if it's just one more. So, whoever you are, if YOU're reading this, shoulder blade, or back for a tattoo?

One of a kind

Still can't but I'm getting around.

Gah, my sore throat is getting worse and there's rain!!!!!!!!
Good things (f0r me) come absolutely at the wrong time.. I just want to go play in the rain..
Got home at 630, woke up at 12, ate and read newspapers then went back to slp. Im currently lying on my bed typing all these. What a horrible sight, my room's in a total mess that I am in desperate need to clear it up. My mind's got a huge hole that whatever I study, it leaks out.
One two or maybe more facts remain. But.. Fuck?
Still can't believe.

two man show101

I'm at Ry's and I'm desperate for water.
But I cant step out without risking banging into the chairs.
I CAN'T FIND THE LIGHT SWITCH IN THE KITCHEN and I can't find the cups.
I found the kettle and I was almost sure that it would be scalding hot... And yet I don't knw what prompted me to touch it but thank God, it was just fine.
My throat's getting worse, I'm going back to studying now.
On a side note,
I'm a human living a robotic lifestyle.. But with a little smth to be happy abt now :)

G

It's comforting to knw that even though we don't talk so much.. You're still here/there for me 24/7. What you told me earlier came as a surprise and for a moment, I thought you typed in the wrong convo. Haha I'm sorry I didn't reply bcos I was aslp.. But what I really want to say is, a big thank you. You've got me whenever wherever you need me too

:)

Are you beginning to get my point?

I swear the only thing keeping me alive right now is the trip next week.
But I hope I don't get bombed/torn apart/be held hostage.

10mins before I handed in my paper, anything and everything was inside my head except the answer to the question.
WHAT'S DISPOSABLE INCOME!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!
I am almost ready to greet supp paper...
I've been having very weird dreams, really really weird ones that when I wake up, I lay in bed for a while and think abt whether it really happened and what if it did.

I'm going to play some GH (Guitar hero, not general hospital) for a while before I go for a run to relax and then, study. Or maybe I'd drop by C's place. Whichever, whatever.

A perfect way to save the environment

says:
*she called me and asked me where i was
*and i was like i just woke up
*ahaha
*and i pretended i wasnt going to meet her again
*then i bought flowers for her and put it on the doorstep
Birdney Spears says:
*wow
*youre so cheesy
*(Y)
says:
*lol
Birdney Spears says:
*you are a diehard romantic
says:
*i did it to all my girlfriends tho
*LOLLLLL
*i did it --
*then --
Birdney Spears says:
*THAT RECYCLES ALL YR IDEAS

No dogs allowed

Plan to meet M: successful but we were both late for an hour
Plan to watch Changeling : successful
Plan to study: epic fail
Barely 5 mins into reading notes, I had to go. And now, I am lacking every form of motivation to touch my study notes. I can hear the guitar hero calling me from my living room.

That choc muesli is so addictive, I haven't stopped snacking on it ever since I came back.
I said I would disappear for a while from the cyber world but Obviously, I failed.
On the other hand, things have been going quite smoothly for me..
I really can't wait forrrrrrrrrrr .... . . . . . . ......... BeeKayKay!

A break from studying

v._.v says:
both also lousy


-.-
Hahahahahaha.

Exams, what exams?

Y'knw I've been looking at horoscopes recently.. And I think it is really quite true.
Haha but I weren't looking at mine.
Today is quite significant for me bcos..
I sent my phone for repair today and currently, I'm using a very lousy Samsung phone that helps me waste msges by sending blank ones to anybody that texts me. (hahaha nah thats not the reason why it's significant)
I Finally went to church after 3 months. And I think churches have some sort of a sleeping spell.
I always, Always, fall aslp. Unless I'm doing smth else other than just listening alone.
Oh, I am hooked onto a new song.
You are the only thing that makes sense
Just ignore all this present tense
Anw, all thanks to my sister's new camera, we spent sometime jumping by the roadside last night just trying to catch the right... uh, position? I don't knw how to say. But it was funny and tiring just trying to capture the right moment.
Capture the moment... .. I want to get a polaroid camera.

Ohwell.
Here's how my past late nights have been. ..
We're all gathered infront of the tv.
I'd be drumming away, my sister will be 'strumming' away and my mom will sing..
"RUNNING THRU THE MONSOON BEYOND THE WORLD TIL' THE END OF TIME.."
Later..
"WHOAH! we're halfway there.. WHOAH! We're living on a prayer!"


Hahahaha yeah, what exams were you saying, again?

I prefer things to have a proper ending

.. And that was just a form of closure.

Right after I told M and the rest that it was Friday the 13th.. My favorite largest waterbottle of all times dropped and broke and spilled water on to my laptop bag and the adapter for the computer.
After that I shut up abt the Friday shit and my day went pretty fine.

I was saying so much lyrics earlier (for them to guess what song) while walking home with sister & co that I think I got energized and came home and played guitar hero so here I am now.
Just thought I should probably update this space abit before I disappear for a while to mug my lifeeeee away.
Exams are next week and I behave like.. Exams? What exams?
I need to go slp now, Suwati and maplewood l8r.

I wonder if my brother is going to celebrate Vday with his boyfriend..
Haha, ok. Happy Valentine's Day, anyone that even reads this.

To me, you are perfect

I hope you're fine.
-
I'm so slpy but I have the sudden urge to... Stay up tonight and then go to sch l8r.
Ah fuck, my aircon's leaking again.
...
Ok then again, I shall postpone that urge to saturday night.
Pls pray that Eme's mom will suddenly say yes ok and then I'd have a room mate.
Goodnight!

Never understand

I'm fine. I just wonder if it's normal for a married couple to always be quarreling over the slightest/stupidest thing.
I hate it when I wake up in the morning and I hear.. instead.
It is unnecessary and it just makes me want to get out of the house quick.
Thats what commitment does to anybody, it spoils every good thing.

On a very much lighter note, my guitar hero is working now. And I paid only $20 for the servicing.
Whoooo yay and.. I think my mom just gave me the green light.
I'm better than fine now. Me is happy :)

This is for real

Oh my God, pls pls pls pls make my mother say yes.

>:(

Tonight,

The silliest and the stupidest ideas my friends can come up with is retarded enough to make history.
I don't knw why the hell I'm still awake when I've got sch at 9.
Tmr's Suwati day and Timbre.
I've been making plans for my upcoming holidays and I really hope it goes well.
Wha, I behave like exams are over.
1241 and I feel my stomach growling.
Oh the sky is clear enough tonight for the stars to be seen. And, the moon is incredibly. Bright.
Hahahaha I don't knw why I said that, not that any of you are reading it right now now now.

Ok shh. I'm heading off to bed so.
Goodnight and sweet dreams, You.



.. is the night we break our tradition.

Go watch Benjamin Button

“We were meant to lose people. How else would we know how important they are?”

Skipalong

I think I have issues.
No, I Have issues.

Time check : 0729
I just came back home from a night of... Rock band.
It's 0731 now.. And I'm wondering WHY my wii won't work.

Yay, it's raining

Listen to...
Never ready to leave by Sherwood.

Came back from Bugis not that long ago.. Attempted to buy berms but I left with anything and everything instead of the actual thing that I initially wanted to buy.
I'm seated in my living room, waiting for my sister to jog finish so we can go.. Watch that movie.
The only reason why I didn't tag along is bcos I'm too lazy to change out of my clothes.

It felt like.. It was just yesterday I was listening to Prettiest Friend on my laptop.
I wonder how you do that, teach me?

Ok, my sister is back!

Cos you're losing anyway

I ran in the rain today and it felt really good.
But I think it's causing me to burn up now.
And my guitar hero. Just. Won't. Work.

OK. It's the eve of my psycho test and I'm still digressing here.


How I wish you were here, D.
I've ran out of things to say and I don't knw if I should even have any to begin with.

1. The very reason why she fell in love with you could just be the very reason why she's going to be out of it
2. I miss you, you you you you and you.
3. "I know it's wrong but I don't mind"


Maybe... I'd do a tattoo just before I head off to anywhere.
I had the sudden urge to pick up a cigarette but, nah.
I must quit digressing.
Quit quit quit quit quit!!!!!!!!!!!!

And Steph! Yeah okkk make yrself freeeee. Hopefully by then my guitar heroes would be working... You can come by my place and play! :)

The Theif

Projects.. Presentations are finally over and done with for this sem.
Can't wait for exams to come and end.
I found a new and beautiful place to run to but then when I ran there this afternoon, I found out it was populated by those foreign workers and the only reason I didn't realize earlier.. Was bcos I ran there at night.
But it is still going to be the place I'm going to run to for a while.

I want to buy that nike earphones, new clothes, watch a movie, get a new tattoo, leave this place..

Not anything you should know of

Hi there, whoever you are.
I doubt anybody but you reads this anymore but I need an outlet.
Gah, I'm feeling really horrible today.
My stomach is all queasy, I really feel like puking.
I bought guitar heroes ytd and it doesn't work.

Ah, I really need a run.

My name is Birdney

OK I decided to stay here bcos, I can't think of a better name.
And.. I'm not ready to move from this space?
So Hi, again.

I'm fine, I just dont cry, I run.

I was typing quite a bit then I hit backspace.
Thinking that I should probably move away from this space as well.

Well I'd move away but I'm never ready to leave

Can't believe I'm awake so early when I just went to slp like not that long ago.
Anyway, I was just wondering.
Anybody wants to go watch Jason Mraz with me?
:S

I knw she'd be reading this

It's sad that things have to turn out this way, again.
Everybody expected but nobody knew what was going to be happen.
They warned me and yet I still went ahead. I was hoping that maybe.. It'd be different.
At least I tried.

So they say.. There will always be a better one. I'm not doubtful of that, but like I said it before to my friend, it's just for this moment, this particular someone is all I see.

How has 2009 been?

Mine was going quite well..
Maybe I Was thinking too much, but I don't think I am right now.

Kinda had an argument with my mom last night over a stupid table which left me all hungry cos I refused to admit I was hungry so she'd cook.
And this morning, I hate it when she uses the past or the Bible or what the pastor says.
I Knw what they say but you don't hafta use them just to say how I should be listening to you.
And I hate it when she uses the guilt to make you do things.
I love my mom but I just don't like what she does sometimes.
You knw?

It's just like how you love someone without actually being in love.

I realized that the songs I listen to on my playlist roughly describes what I'm thinking/feeling.
Ok maybe I realize that long ago but I just didn't mention it, not that it matters..

I am bored so I will tell the world what I did in sch today.
I spent half an hour doing relaxing exercises in psych class, the next half hour analysing how stress I am and then class ended, time to go home.
Had an impromptu moment and headed down to Vivo, D joined me.
Got books and looked around for lighters and cushions.
Anyone knws whr I can find engraving services?

2008 has been a good year but I don't want 2009 to be just like it.
I want smth better... Can I?

What song do you feel like tonight?

I have this sudden urge to do away with the table, the desktop in my room.
Have abit more walking space, I feel like having cushions.
I want to paint this part of my room that has alot of horrible pencil drawings I've been dying to get rid.
Soon soon.. And I should also start thinking of ways I can psycho my mother to do away the thing in my room,
It's taking so much spacee.
Haha I knw my bed is taking the most space but it's currently the nicest part of my room to be in.

And I'm fine, thanks Em. :)

Run

I am fine, really. For now at least.
Just not in the best of moods.
Don't knw whr I should be, what I should be doing right now.
I'm feeling abit jumpy. Don't knw if there is anything wrong with me.
Feels like someone is going to die when in actual fact, nobody really is.
Or at least, not for now..

Time to be really impulse. Don't knw when my chance will go.
It's now or never?

Bet nobody understands (except Ann maybe) what the hell I'm talking abt.
I'd be back with a happier post, promise.

Déjà vu

Don't knw what I should be saying now.. I don't like what I've been thinking lately.
Time passed so fast, can't believe the results are getting released tmr.
Feels like just ytd I was still trying to teach chemistry.
Sch tmr.. Dread it.
AH V, you reading this? If you are, I need to borrow yr scanner again.
Ok, Msn's telling me to go slp now by being the biggest bitch.
So goodnight!

Do I sound happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've not been updating for a while and I'm updating now at such a fast speed purely for YOU (STEPHANIE CARROLL)
I'm so bored now and I haven't taken a shower since I came back home. I'm glued to the floor.
I went ice skating today and fell flat on my butt.
Caught bedtime stories, bumped into V and friend.
I want to get 2 storybooks. I want.. A getaway?
Haha no, don't think so much.
Ok, my parents are back from Genting.
Gotta be .. Suwati? (is this how you spell babE? haha) tmr

This is my attempt at a happy post bcos I was asked to post one sad and one happy post.
Been really busy for the past week but I'm the same, fine. Just maybe darker.

Don't ask

Sometimes.. I wish you would.

See you soon

For a moment, it felt like we weren't just talking abt him anymore.

Today was just a lazy sunday whr I spent my hours walking at the park while brainstorming on what slogan I should give Britain.
Feels quite weird not going to church but I'm getting used to it. Even my mom stopped asking.
But One fine Sunday, I'd find myself there again.

Oh I decided not to sell my itouch in the end.
Got sentimental value alr la, cant bear to sell it away.
So sorry Amanda!

Wha time passed so fast. I've been listening to the same songs for 2 weeks now.
17songs on repeat mode wherever I go, whatever I do.
It's also played when I'm drifting off to slp.
Amazing.

And.. I'm still trying to give Britain a good enough slogan.

Hi Ner there's nothing wrong with my itouch. It's just me that wants to change for smth new. ...

I am so slpy now but I am far from home.

I am still at my brother's place waiting for my dad to come pick me up.

I've got to be at amk hub at 10 tmr morning.

I'm not complaining bcos it was supposed to be 7.

I can foresee this coming week to be busy.

So many deadlines I've got to meet.

Can't wait for my end sem hols.

 

I wonder if anyone wants to buy a 1st gen 8gb ipod touch...

I think I'm about the worst sibling alive.
My sister's friends called me on new year's morning asking me whr is she.
Apparently, a guy sent my sister home and she didn't answer any calls.
SO they thought.........
Anw I said I'd check if she was at home.
But I fell aslp straight after that.

Last night, there was a report about the fire at one of the nightclubs in BKK.
Think. My brother. Party animal. Currently in BKK. Didn't answer any phone call.
My mom nearly went to the MOF..
And I hardly gave it a thought.

It's quite funny actually if you think abt it, but let's say if all that happened...
Wha whr's Ann's head? Touchwood!

2008? 2009?

2008 has been rather good to me.
It's the year that I came to realize that the 4 friends that I went to jail (sch la haha) with, are friends that are there for me no matter what happens.
It's the year that I'm now good friends with ppl I didn't think I would talk again.
It's the year I found new friends that I didn't think I would click initially.

It's the year I found you too.


Now, if there's a new year resolution I should make, it'd be to stay out of my shell.

Not emo

Today is just bleak.
I went from being the latest to arrive in class to the only failure, to nearly spraining my ankle just bcos I wasn't focusing whr I was walking.
I found myself looking at my watch then my phone and my watch then my phone more than 10 times.
Now, the only thing that I'm looking forward to tonight is.. The chinese show.


I knw I told you not to but I just wish you could have given me some answers.
Bcos this thing you're doing... It's never going to end.
Unless..

All I'm asking now is for you to..

Think properly.

I had a weird dream abt rats

And.. I got bitten really really hard by one

Yay D is back and I've been meeting her 2 days in a row. Today will be the 3rd.
Did I mention that I did not stay over at my own slumber party that I hosted with Eme in the end.. Yeah they called me sucker.
Visited Ann's jail last night with D and we had highly alcoholic eggnog.
Played wii and then D's eye started getting infected.
(Note to Ann: start cleaning up yr rooooom)

Sch's starting soon and I'm really behind in my painting which I intend to finish tmr.
I'm going to be Mariah at my brother's place first.
Dont laugh, my 4hours pay is most probably the same as yr 8 hours.

-
Why do I have the feeling that smth like that happened while you were with me.
Y'knw, it'd be easier if you said you were just playing.

Merry Xmas- I thought today was Friday

For the past few Christmas, I'd get up the earliest in my family and wake everyone up to open up the presents.
This year... We opened it at 12midnight. My whole family plus my brother's gf.
It was fun, and the Christmas spirit finally arrived.

Dinner started at like 10plus, and we ate till 1120 then I played Wii with my brother-in-law.
I am so happy my itouch isn't naked anymoreeeeeeee


OH D CAME BACK ALR!!!!!
SHE CALLED ME WHEN SHE CAME BACK.
She was in the same flight as my brother-in-law. OK I am going to just call him bil. So tiring to type out his whole entire.. I dont knw.

Later... I'd be going to Bukit Timah Hill with Eme and maybe watch Twilight and have our slumber party.
You see, I may have been upset but I've got my family and friends that make up for it.
In fact, they make up for more.

And yes, Steph, I'd try to listen to your advice.
I hope you're not dead bcos you're not replying me online.

So anyway, I hope all of you will enjoy this day.
Merry Xmas!

So sorry but this is like the 3rd post for today.
It's been raining since morning and I'm so bored waiting for time to pass.
I was feeling abit ------- (I dont knw how to describe) till I read ry's blog.
Fucking funny haha ok maybe it's just me.
AND RY, OMG I HAD INDIGESTION FROM EATING THE FOOD LAST NIGHT.
zzzzz

I was so irritated with my brother picking on presents... Then later he said, I am very lucky this year.
Ha ha ha ha ha.

Ok, happy christmas eve! I think I'm going to flood my blog.

On a Christmas eve,

Steph ♥ says:
OK GO CHANGE YOUR FONT TO GREEN!!!
hurry!
Birdney Spears says:
OK
Steph ♥ says:
done?
Birdney Spears says:
is yrs red
HAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHA

Thats us trying to feel all christmas-y
I'm sorry but even though I've got quite alot of activities that I'm looking forward to, I still can't feel the christmas spirit.
It must be the rain.
So rain pls go away, so I can go for a run to clear my mind.

1 more thing to look forward to in the next 48 hours..

Cos,
In less than 24 hours..
D IS COMING BACK!!!!!!

This time last year, I was most probably working.
I wonder what will happen next year cos I am certain I didn't expect anything like that last year.
Anw...
I've got Bleakmas l8r (which I'm so dead for bcos I am hell sure I'd be recognized almost immediately), my own family one's tmr and slumber party the day after.
3 parties in a row..
Christmas still Is my most favorite time of the year.

Eme, are we still going to watch twilight/yes man and trek bukit timah hill!!!!!!
Better say yes.
If not.... Haha

Decode

Then again, if you meant everything you said.. I wonder how you're feeling.
Empty?
I'm starting to believe now that I've been living a lie.

One week ago, you were here with me.
Today, we're as good as strangers.

I understand how it feels to have what was held so dear to the heart taken away just like that.
I fight for what I want but I'm not the type that will ask you back if you're alr someone else's.

So what if you said I made this different.
The thought of what might have happened when I received a msg at 6 was enough to kill me.
I'm sure you meant everything you said to me but, that was then. Right?
Ppl change, feelings change.
Have no doubt, you're still different to me in every way you could be.
You're sorry.
And I'm sorry too.

I might cry but, how will you knw?
Now that you two can finally be together, just stay.
At least, for her sake, be decisive and don't sway.

All too familiar...

You see I can't say I knew or expected this to happen bcos I really really didn't see this coming.
It was only for that moment that I foresaw what might happen and felt that way.


Life isn't bleak.
I just make it to be. So I will not.
My laptop is doing fine now!
I am so happy.

Thank you to all that bothered to come for my party..
I'm so sorry for being sucha bad host.
And, happy bday Candice!
:)

I am very very very sad right now.
Cos it takes $800+++ to fix my laptop.
Anybody willing to donate money to me?

Wtf?

I threw my phone on my bed, it bounced off my laptop to my wall and landed somewhr.
Ok I don't really care abt the phone bcos it's just a house phone....
But now... My laptop screen cracked. No not cracked.
It just has this weird image.
Omg... It was returned to me not That long ago from repair.
Now I'm going to have to send back for repair. Again.

OMG WHY SO DUMB!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Hi all,

She won't be around bcos she's going away for a holiday in Europe.
Skype? Thats if she brings her laptop and even then, doubt she'd be skyping on a Christmas day in Europe.
I would gladly fly over if I have money to buy the return air ticket.

I should prolly go learn acrobatics, or whatever is that called, from those China ppl that has turned Orchard road into a freak pasar malam.
Bcos then, I might have a higher possibility to fit into her pocket. Ok la don't be so ambitious.. Luggage?

What a cold... Hari Raya Haji? Ok scratch that. What a cold monday.

I ate 2wedges of papaya ytd which probably led to the visit to the toilet (not to pee la dammit) 4times today.
I ate so much raisins in the morning, I had an indigestion.
I feel an impending stomach ache now.

> : (

I want..

Boxers
Berms
Shoes (slip ons.. sneakers..)
Slippers
Shirts, T-shirts..
Skin for itouchhhh


It feels like most don't really have a whole long wishlist bcos they alr have what they want, or can get it themselves or smth.
I can't think of anything else bcos.. I have almost everything well except one last thing.

If anybody can think of a way (and it actually works) that I can spend at least one second (cos I don't ask for that much) of christmas day with my girlfriend, I will gladly give up everything I asked above and will give you anything that you want and I can afford.
Really.

Irony

I had dinner earlier with my family plus my brother's girlfriend.
The whole dinner felt like an irony.
And I don't knw if I was being sarcastic without the intention of being that way...
Dinner was good nonetheless.
I never laughed so much at a dinner table with my family, it was an unintended joke.
I'm getting really good at self-entertaining.

Christmas... is coming. And I don't knw how it's going to be.
I wonder if the difference starts from me cos it feels different somehow.
I can't quite put my finger at whether it's good or bad.

Ok, I still have tests coming up.
I NEED TO STUDY.
C'mon, motivate me abit.

ANW to those that asked me abt my wishlist.. Hang on for abit. I'd post it up.. Tmr.

Thats my girl

Things are mostly still the same... Except that now whenever someone asks me, 'Are you guys together now?' I don't have to go one big round trying to explain the status then. I can just answer straight to the point now.
And, I can't ask for more.


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