Last night, I fell in love without you

Whoop so I dreamt you were freaked out by the things I did.
You're asleep and I wonder if you're having a sweet dream. Could be anything in the world..
Yr exams are coming soon, I'm sorry for spilling out on you like that.
Hope yr house issues don't get to you, I promise to help you. All you need to do is rmb that I'm here and I have the ability to help.
I uh, miss you. But lately these iloveyous imissyous are 1/10 in a hundred words we speak to each other.
I guess it bothers me abit that I tweet abt you, I write abt you(not here) and you basically have all the affection for everyone else in the world.

You knw how it feels when you're holding sand and it just slips right out of yr palms?
You're the sand in my palm.

If you're reading this at all, I hope you have a good day today. I kept you in my heart and I hope you never go away.
I love you.

I wish we could fall in love all over again.

TGIF, it's the end of the week. But I have work piling up and exams coming soon .. I feel like I have a lot of time that I'm not using it wisely. I spend it getting my emotions wrecked and let it affect my mind while I'm suppose to be concentrating, I get distracted by technology. I wonder if I am bipolar. I was in a state of I just wanna shower you with all the love I had in the world, but now. I'm in a state of .. I just wanna go for a run and study and run and study and the cycle continues.

So this is locked up or I reckon it is. I wish I could be indifferent to how indifferent you were to me. I'm sorry.

2235

Today felt a tad weird. But anyway. I'm thinking if I should lock this up. Should I?

so, stand close to me, dont sail away baby

I just saw a mother n son on a holiday, makes me feel like having one with my mom. .. Looked back two years ago and realized how different I was from the current me. We used to talk for hours on end, now it is as though whatever we say don't interest each other anymore. Or I could be just as paranoid.

So I got up early, ate my breakfast and cleaned up my house did my chores, spent a good 15 mins solely on playing with my dog. Not alot but still. I haven't got that much homework done as well but I feel a tad more productive bcos I am not so confused over what to do for my essay anymore.

(Hi Sharene Lau, you're abt the only other besides idk who reading this, can't let you knw enuff that you're beautiful to me. And you're my one and only, I love you)

Another week

Today is a new beginning to another week of school. Nothing much really happened except that I feel extremely unproductive today and it's making me feel really guilty.
Thr was this period of time whr I could follow this routine of sleeping at 1030 and getting up for sch, and jog and study. I don't recall myself having any happy/sad moments during that period of time but at least I got things done. I was disciplined, so disciplined. I wonder how I did that, and I really wish I can get that self back but with a little more balance. First up, I shall get up early to exercise and have brekkie and start on my work. I'm really looking forward to going home but I am afraid of the changes I might need to face when I get back. And if you knw me, I don't really like that much changes in my life even if they are good.
Note, don't let insecurities get to you. Another note, trust no one. Third note, rmb all of that.

I knw you can read this from right behind me

But go on. I miss those red cushions in my room where I sit and read stupid blogposts and type equally stupid blogposts that don't matter 2 years ltr. I feel like I've lost all my friends since I came over.And uh. I knw you knw this place now, it's late and sch starts early in the morning for both of us. We should sleep although I am in the mood of going sleepless and force myself to run a long while tmr. I miss the culinary sch in terms of me being so tired, I can't even think. Everyone has their own life period

It's like I was sharing a secret and you eavesdropped.

That book is somewhat like my best friend whom I update every few months. I'm not afraid of what you might find out of what I thought abt you and everyone else. But more like.. You saw into the deepest darkest side of me I've been trying to hide from everyone else. And I'm not proud of that side of me, I am ashamed.

You knew me then, you know me now.

Catch me.

I've got a notion that...

Today isn't going to go very well.
You kinda never knw when's the last time that will happen till it happens. Or rather, when it doesn't happen again.

Ah, it's a Sunday and I feel like slping it away except that I need to be Suwati.
So, have a good day all you bored ppl reading this boring entry! (haha)

No I wasn't awake thru out

Just a while ago, I saw a lizard just outside my room. I panicked and then I unknowingly locked myself out of the room while preventing it from going it into my room.
Smart move.

Ok, fine shut up and goodnight.

Well, hello.

Today was fun, thank you M (:
Now now, time for me to change my bedsheet and go to bed early.

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Today's good. Very good. Hahahaha can't wait for tonight.

11:11

The night's still pretty young and I'm alr packed for sch, almost ready for bed.
Just when I don't need that much of it, I feel like I have all the time in the world now.
My brother's going away tmr for 3months, time's going to fly (like how it always does) and before I knw it, he's going to be back.


Back to square 1

Ah, alright. I think I'm going to slp.
Goodnight, world. Sweet dreamzzz.

Today's a good day

It's 5. I'm done with sch and I've alr taken a nap.
It has been good for today, I got to spend the whole entire time with my favourite 2 (1 was missing). Hahaha hopefully it'd be the same for the whole week....
Nvm, let's all skip sch on fri!!!!! :D

Goodnight.

I got up at 6 plus today to talk to nocturnal animals..... Hahaha. No la I was woken up by the incredibly heavy rain this morning and talked to Steph for a minute or two before I fell back aslp.
So... Today I'm going to cook for my mom. :S
Whooo.. Hoo?

Man, bcos of sch, I'm getting up way earlier than I usually do. And it's perfectly fine with me if I can fall back aslp?
Anywayyyyy, I got to watch benjamin buttons on my new tv last night, awesomeeeeee.

I don't need to be a genius to know

It's finally the end of this rather.. Nauseating week. (TGIF!)
Yeh I fully rmb what I said. But somehow, I think the ride has ended.
It has been a pretty good roller coaster ride, don't you think? But it's probably time for a break.
And hey, don't mind, let me take a detour?
You knw the term: Out of sight, out of mind..
Except that, this can hardly get out of my mind. So, to really take a break, I am going to have to take a different route and not pass this ride; keeping it out of sight will make it less tempting to ride it again.

Whatever it is, today's a good day and I won't let negative emotions ruin it.
I got up rather awake for my exam today and I was there just in timeeee.
I wasn't expecting anything good since I missed ytd's lesson.. But siaaaa laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I did muchhhh better than expected siaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hahahaha

Whoo, hello weekend!