Sept/Oct

I wonder if any of you came into contact with yr ex during those two months.
I bumped into mine quite a few times. More than the times I bump into her in sch for the whole of last year.
She said we were too drained to date somebody after one another and I agreed.
It took me quite a while to get by the whole thing.
I'm still quite afraid of commitment even if it's wearing off at a time it really shouldn't be.

You knw how yr other half always expects smth from you?
I'm terrified of not being able to meet up to expectations.
I am afraid of that. I knw the feeling of disappointment so I don't want to be the reason why anybody else should be feeling that way.
We agreed to meet next year? Haha it was such a random decision from her 2years ago.
And I honestly don't knw what we'd do when we meet.
I don't knw if it's me or that she can't really look at me in the eye or that she just don't look at the person beside the person she's talking to.
Or maybe she just prefers to look at one person and only talk to one and, only wave bye to one.
So if we're already like that before we even meet up alone..
I think I should bring my laptop. Apparently I think we talk better online.

Then again, maybe I'm just sensitive. And maybe she looked at me when I looked away.
^^


Hello Nov.
Pls bring smth better for me, thank you.