7.23.2015

hustler

It is almost hilarious - the way I want to leave, when I can do nothing but stay or the way I want to stay, when I can do nothing but leave. 

Lately, I've been feeling a little too constricted in this space. It almost feels like I am trapped and I hated that feeling. I felt like I was on a highway, and having just missed my exit.. I have to wait for the next one. 

Of course, nobody really gets how my brain works. Here's a tip, nobody really understand themselves anyway. 

I don't really feel like talking to anyone, not anybody that's not here. I am too far, and I just feel so disconnected and irrelevant. 

I realize I just wanted to write, write something, write something and keep it somewhere. I miss writing, like the traditional way of actually writing something down. Alas, I haven't found a book I wanna write in. But here isn't that bad either, it makes up for less baggage when the time comes where I have to leave this place. Figuratively, and literally speaking. 

I am mostly tired of working for other people, having my life subjected to their liking and approval. I really want to be my own boss, and lately, I think that's really where my next step should be. I shouldn't be finding a place to fit in, more like finding a place where I don't fit in and invite everyone to fit in with me. 
Ha! 

I am not a follower, but a leader. Not a follower, but a leader. 



Not a follower. 


I am a leader. 

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