I like exercising all by myself bcos, I have this longggg period all to myself to think what I want to do, what I plan to do, what I am going to do or abt ppl arnd me or whatever whichever whenever. Don't you think so?

Incase you don't already knw by now, I am working at a donut place. And when I finish my shift, I Reek (with a capital R) of donuts. It's disgusting, I look at my colleagues in amazement when they can still stomach some of them down. I do so many toppings for the donut that I even smell of them, I feel like one donut myself. Eew.

From now on, I am going to eat more ^^ hahaha and ironically, it'd be to lose my fats. C'mon laugh out loud.

I need to go back to sch soon to collect my leaving cert, I was too lazy to collect on the day I collected my results. And, did I tell you.. I'm in TP's culinary. HAHAHA My ex gf's ex bf is inside.



And lastly, have I mentioned how hot older woman are when they're toned? I don't knw how but they exude some kind of.. I don't really knw the right word to describe them. But my yoga instructor is.. seriously, Hot. Whhheew.

Incase you were thinking I am talking abt an ahmah with white hair, go bang yr head against the wall la.

I wanted to say so much but what's the point. I am going to earn big bucks Anyway and throw money at yr face if that's what you're always worrying. My life don't entirely depend on you.
Watch me succeed in my life bcos I'm going to.

Daryl asked me how I spent my Vday. I almost forgot what I did then.. suddenly I rmbed. I was doing yoga with my sister and my mother. HAHAHAHA.
I've got so much free time on my hands now that right now.. I am attending yoga classes regularly sometimes with the company of both my sister and mother.
I need to find a job but nobody wants to hire a golden haired male/female.
I'd have dyed my hair brown if my mom told me not to bcos I'd be wasting money and spoiling my hair. I swim and I bleached my hair, it's already double trauma. Dying it again plus I still put wax/clay... don't ask me what will happen. Cos I don't want to experience it.

My mother told me that I must watch what I say bcos she told her mother that she was going to marry a hawker and it really came true.
When she told me that, my heart almost couldn't take it bcos I told her, "Ma the indian newspaper man is my husband"
Hear me whine bcos NO, I don't wanna marry an indian man that's going to deliver newspaper (I'm.. not racist, ok?)


I'm going to make a boardgame. It'd be.. ____ and Larder.
Gimme some ideas ppl.
Ohyeah I'm sorry I didn't reply tags. But, HELLO MYCALENDARGIRL.
Should I have a tagboard and make it easy for spammers to spam my blog.
hmmmmmm.


BTW DOMO, THE DOG IS SO CUTE. (#$^*$_(^&#%

Okay I took a body fat thing and hmmm, I need to lose fats.
Yeah seriously bcos I have too much fats. And... I am at a loss at how to lose them bcos hor, I really don't knw. I exercise and I think I eat quite healthily...... actually no, I've got alot of junk at home. Ok I think I need to detox.
Eh I don't knw man.
Whatever, I want to earn so much money that when my kid or whoever ask me to buy for them smth, I won't need to reject them.
I feel suffocated.

STEPHANIE CARROLL (SPELL? HAHA) TAGGED ME TO DO THIS.


a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
b. tag seven people to do the same.
c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

1.I need to shit everyday otherwise I'd be a grumpy grump
2.I mustttttttttttt eat at least 1 fruit everyday
3.When I run/swim, I only stop at a number I like for the day
4.When I'm lazy, I'm lazy, I don't move
5.I hate it when ___ talks so loudly
6.I don't like ppl pressing the doorbell
7.Don't ever wake me up unless I tell you to

the 7 ppl..
1.Tania soh ahhaha
2.Doralynn
3.whoever
4.that
5.reads
6.my
7.blog
HAHAHA

Yesterday was the worst day of the year so far.
I felt like a piece of lard, or a balloon. No.. not bcos I ate so much goodies. It's bcos I was down with a flu and my uncle gave me some medicine ppl hear it eon years ago and is currently ban ( I THINK), it resulted in my body couldn't take the medicine, and then I felt like I was going to puke but no.. I was not. I felt like I was a very big balloon. It sucks and I was quite grouchy the whole day bcos I was also down with a horrible sore throat.
Bcos I always want to bump into certain ppl at certain places and I don't get to, I've come to terms that the world isn't actually very small. But, when I saw my freaking MANAGER (BETTY) FROM BAKERZIN. SHIT OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
SHE'S MY DISTANT RELATIVE AND SHE WAS THE ONE THAT HYPERVENTILATED WHEN SHE SAW MY HAIR, SHE WENT BERSEK AND SHE COMPLAINED TO THE ONE THAT KEPT ON NAGGING AT ME. I'm sorry but her voice is really irksome, like a frog.
And I can't help it if she just refuses to look at me and wish me happy new year, I think she was quietly hoping that she can get outta the place ASAP bcos she left quite fast after I arrived. Hahahahaha.
but Dude man, I got angbao from my manager's husband. ^^
They gave $8, not bad. But I expected more from the manager. HAHA


It's a fine line between wanting to be thin and obsession.
Sometimes I feel like being an anorexic but when I look at how the obsession is taking a toll over someone so dear to me, I think, I should slap myself a thousand times for even having that thought. And incase you're worried if I'm anorexic, no. I'm not. I can safely say that I'm not, with no doubts.
^^v

So, today's the open house at my place. And I stink. Well, I didn't bathe the day before ytd bcos I was sick. I didn't bathe ytd bcos I was a balloon waiting to pop.

So naturally, I STINK and ppl are coming. Hahahahaha. Too bad, maybe I should fart wherever I go to complete the package. LOL

I'm not the type to forget about nights like this,


I baked soya pineapple tarts, my mother baked kueh bangkit.
You knw that coconut-ty biscuit that melts in yr mouth? Nvm, does anybody want tarts or that kueh bangkit? :D

I'm a happy person tonight, a really happy person tonight.
Pilates really help, not that I've went for the first trial lesson already.
I can safely say that bcos nobody (except dory) knws what the hell I'm talking abt.
Maybe the only thing I'm not very happy abt today is that domo just left for taiwan. Now I've got nobody to disturb and visit whenever I'm bored.

Hmmummmm..


And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be?

Okay so I smiled myself to slp last night. So?
Hahahaha.
Chinese new year is coming soon, not nice, not fun. I don't like the noise, I only like the $$
I'm hoping it wont rain or maybe I do. I wanna go swimming.
My dad's calling me and seriously man.. shhhhhhhh.

After 5days of freezing, walking, eating, shopping kowloon hongkong.
GUESS WHO'S BACK, YO! Hahaha not like you knew I was gone anw, but I don't really care right now. I'm back and I've got a job to keep myself busy with.
Whr are you domo? I got for you pancakes and yr laoPOUbing.

v^^v

I tell you what I did today, I looked thru the answers for the papers I did last year.
I'm scared and it's bcos I'm not freakingly scared. When.. I should be, right?
Hahaha okay, I should go to bed soon.
I had a dream the night before and I was telling myself in the dream that I need to tell Vick abt my dream. You knw I thought I was awake but it was actually me waking up in the dream so technically, I dreamt I woke up.


I've decided, I'm normal. Ry's feeling the same way as I am. So I'm normal ^^v
YAY

I feel like pushing everyone else to the limit, I wanna see their tolerance level. I don't want them to keep on giving in to me, it's becoming an unhealthy habit. I feel like having someone shout at me, tell me that I'm selfish, I'm doing everything all for myself.

Am I crazy, bcos I think ya'll are too nice and I am taking advantage of you you you and you.

So, shout at me? No, not nag.

A few days ago, some guy from overseas called me.
He asked me if I wanted to invest. I took him for a ride before I gave up talking and passed the phone to my mother.
She said "I'm her mother and my daughter's 12 years old so she obviously won't have the money, sorry."

That's random.
Ok, right now, I still don't feel the nervousness for release of results creeping in bcos I am falling aslp.
So clearly, I am still not nervous.

A table has reappeared once again after 2months without it. My room is seriously cluttered and I hope my mom really.. intends to look for another house. I need a room to myself, I like the company I have now but I don't like the baggage. (IE, the cosmetics.. )

It's more or less confirmed now, I'm getting my results on Thurs.
I'm nervous, yes I am. I'm nervous and I'm excited. No not for the bad results.
Haha. And.. there's dory/Daryl's party.
Geez, that girl is really leaving.
I am going to work (hopefully) and save money to go to Sydney and crash her house dolly's car whatever.

I am trying to find someone but hmmm. I think I need more resources. Help, help.

Note to self: rmb domo's hongdou bun otherwise she's gonna die bcos of hongdou drought

My heart sank.

Anna dreamt she scored 21pts. If that's reality, shit, I'm gonna score 31. Hahaha but since dreams are the opposite of reality, I told her she'd score 12.
I did not dream of anything.. But I don't mind 13 points or lesser. :D

So I said I booked the flights for hk already. I did not mention what happened before that. My sis and my mom took me for a ride, telling me the bookings did not go thru which made me supermegairritatinglyvery pissed. I cancelled on my friends for this and now you're telling me it wasn't booked? So yeah, I kinda blew up and I felt bad then, bcos apparently, both of them were behaving like they had halos on their head.
sis: Can you go to my hotmail?
me: wait, LAH. I'm looking at smth
sis: Pleaseeeeeeeee? :D:D:D

How to not feel bad and my mother was beside me, looking at me click anxiously at everything. Even playing along with me, asking me vietnam can anot. And when I clicked onto my sis email, there I saw the email for the confirmed flight itinery.
me: #(*%&#$)*@&%#
All of them burst out laughing and they told me they were trying hard not to laugh behind my back. Literally.

This is not good, my mother told me her mother who is my grandmother, might not be able to live long enough till her next next birthday. Her next birthday is just this sat and I don't knw how am I suppose to feel. I mean, what, I don't exactly talk to my grandmas. The only thing that's bothering me is how.. I'm going to deal when my turn to tell my kids (If there's any) comes. Like.. "yr grandma is going to die"
You knw how much I love my parents and I won't deny that I am slightly biased to my mom bcos really, I don't rmb spending so much time with my dad but that doesn't matter, he's a changed man now. And I should give him the opportunity. .. right?
Why am I saying this, I sound troubled when I'm not.
At least not for now..
I don't knw whr to start.
I've got a problem with pride.

"I like you"

This isn't a very good day, I heard smth I've dreaded since forever. It isn't a good/bad thing, just smth I dread.
And.. I am most likely going to receive my results next week.
I. Am. Dreading. It.

I am changing my biological clock once again, I cannot always sleep so late but I don't mind waking up late.
I'm hooked on Grey's. I feel like hiding in a hole.


"but, I don't like you enough"

This is not good, I saw my bill and it exploded. The last time it exploded this much, it was when I was.. sec1. Ohgod ohgod ohgod, pls, anybody, don't msg me anymore. Just call me cos I have free incoming calls. I don't care if I dislike talking on the phone or you dislike listening to my voice, just call if you wanna talk to me. Ok?

SO! Instead of going to Batam with V Ann and her family, I'm going to HK. Anybody knw what I can do there? I'm looking online and I can hardly find anything. .. Uhhhhh.

I need to find a new job nowwww.

I told you before,

-
Oh hello tease, Japan was suppose to be with my mom but due to some issues, we're planning to go at the end of the year instead with my sister (cherry berry) and for the sydney, it would be with my mother again butttttttt I might tag along to BKK with domo? Don't knw.
Hmm..
I like the idea of working in F&B industry but right now, I don't wanna go spend money and dye my hair another colour presentable, so I'd just let my hair grow, which won't take long, and then I'd just leave it as it is or maybe, dye brown.
Anw, Sunday's my last day at work! ^^v
I told my sis before that I never imagined myself sitting down, in fact, everytime I think of the future of what I would be doing, I'm serving ppl (not a maid and not in macdonalds too you big sucker haha)
My sis thought I dreamt of working in macdonalds. And.. that's sad.
Hahaha.

Went for open house ytd and I met someone I met two years ago and that's so funny. I found her familiar, she found me familiar and none of us mentioned it till.. I hadta go somewhr else.


I hope and pray it doesn't rain bcos I want to go swimming today. I need to clear my mind. This isn't going anywhere and I'm sorry.

Hi, I am most likely going to Batam next week.
Wish me luck bcos, I think I might not be able to cross the border when I come back. Well that's bcos I would most probably be charcoal and they'd arrest me for possesing a chinese passport.

Hopes of going to Japan next month or so is gone like *poof* and now, I might just go to Sydney which is not a bad thing either. I'd get a chance to say hello to D.

I wanted to type quite alot but I am so freaking lazy, it's so late now. My phone is dead. Uhhhhh.

AHHHHHHHH

I'm talking to domo now and.. I don't knw why I said what I said but I did. Hahahhaa. You knw, there are always ppl that you wouldn't wanna lose in yr life right? I mean, not like there's actually ppl that I would WANT to lose but y'knw, some that you die die also cannot lose. .. Ok nvm.
You'd knw when you knw.

I'm going to be jobless in a few days time, so I am going with domo down to borders on Wed to try our uh, luck/grace to get the job. ^^
I saw two guys holding hands today going together to the toilet. My eyes are small, so when it goes like that, 0.0 you knw how big my eyes really went. It's not an everyday thing unlike lesbians.


I am going to dye streaks of red soon, after I quit bakerzin. I am so tempted to trip my manager and be the biggest bitch to have the biggest bitchfit ever at her. HAHAHA but the furthest(?) bitch I can ever get to is just, erh, 'change the fork for me pls'

Eh...... I forgot what I wanted to post. HAHAHA ok, nvm, I'm just leaving it as it is here.

Oh I heard my results will be released on the 24th omgomgomgomg (D, ITS ONE DAY BEFORE YR BDAY! HAHA)