I believe my mom isn't having her period anymore but she's the one behaving like she's in hormonal distress.
I'm sorry that I am the cause of it but, I'm sure there's a better way to deal with it.
Why do I feel like the fall is sometimes a blessing in disguise (to her) than to anyone else. Ok, the blessing was to actually help me but uhhhhh.. Ohkay I don't really knw how to describe how I feel.
It's funny to think abt it that I blacked out in yoga and fell backwards and hit my head but it's absolutely not funny at all to have sleepless nights bcos I cannot slp well due to the huge bump and how I cannot go trim my hair now fearing that the hairdresser might accidentally comb onto the bump and causing me to wince and how I cannot fall aslp in the bus bcos the bus will cause me to move involuntarily and then hit my head.

Ohno.. I feel like the bump on my head is causing me to be at war with everyone else.
No, it is causing my mom to be at war with everybody else.
My mom is shouting at my manager now.
My mom shouted at the yoga place.

Ohgod Ohgod Oh Lord save me.

It's one of the worst days since the year started.
I blacked out during yoga whilst bending backwards and I have a huge bump behind my head now.
I was angry with my mother bcos there was more talk abt how irresponsible the management of the place were than the bruise on my head.
It did not help when she was raising her voice when she talked to me.
Anw, I am supposed to be very drowsy bcos I took the medicine.
My mom is going to kick up a fuss.
Ahwell.

I arrived back in sgp ytd, still feeling a tad of the waves I was experiencing the day before when I was in the boat.
I had alot of fun and I'm trying hard (can you tell?) to let whoever that reads my blog know that. But I knw I sound extremely dead and I really don't knw why.
I climbed great wall, I visited the outside of Forbidden Palace, I went into Summer palace. And I have a friend that looks like Empress Cixi. Hahahaha.
I'm so lazy to blog y'knw, but I cannot not say this.

My pastor thought I was a guy today.

I dont miss you no more

HALLLLLO im home ! from chinaaa , and hongkong .
i bet no one knew i was gone from sg -.-
so it's freeezing cold over there, i had to wear about 5 layers of clothes so that i dont freeze my ass off.
the food is fantastic with the abundance of fish and veggies :D
but really oily though, i must go for yoga soon to lose those fats. (which is pretty much non-existant, bird)

the china people are always , alwaysss spitting . like , -ew. gross.
shopping's gr8 , i bought tons of hong dou for domo ^^ HAHAAH and durians and i think i bought myself an 8G psp memory card there since it's cheaper than sg, fo' sure.

did you know, i've been trying to log into this blogger account since i left,
but i couldnt since the pw someone sent me is wrong -.- cos she decided to conjoin ALLL the words together.
i finally found out, today and uhhh, yeah.

i'd be off now, more china updates soon :O

Go away give me a chance to miss you

I have not been updating. How sure are you that I was in sgp?
I'm not going to be blogging for the next 2weeks or so, are you sure that I'd be in sgp?
It's raining and it's so cold.
And you, it's taking its toll over you ain't it.

I like exercising all by myself bcos, I have this longggg period all to myself to think what I want to do, what I plan to do, what I am going to do or abt ppl arnd me or whatever whichever whenever. Don't you think so?

Incase you don't already knw by now, I am working at a donut place. And when I finish my shift, I Reek (with a capital R) of donuts. It's disgusting, I look at my colleagues in amazement when they can still stomach some of them down. I do so many toppings for the donut that I even smell of them, I feel like one donut myself. Eew.

From now on, I am going to eat more ^^ hahaha and ironically, it'd be to lose my fats. C'mon laugh out loud.

I need to go back to sch soon to collect my leaving cert, I was too lazy to collect on the day I collected my results. And, did I tell you.. I'm in TP's culinary. HAHAHA My ex gf's ex bf is inside.



And lastly, have I mentioned how hot older woman are when they're toned? I don't knw how but they exude some kind of.. I don't really knw the right word to describe them. But my yoga instructor is.. seriously, Hot. Whhheew.

Incase you were thinking I am talking abt an ahmah with white hair, go bang yr head against the wall la.

I wanted to say so much but what's the point. I am going to earn big bucks Anyway and throw money at yr face if that's what you're always worrying. My life don't entirely depend on you.
Watch me succeed in my life bcos I'm going to.

Daryl asked me how I spent my Vday. I almost forgot what I did then.. suddenly I rmbed. I was doing yoga with my sister and my mother. HAHAHAHA.
I've got so much free time on my hands now that right now.. I am attending yoga classes regularly sometimes with the company of both my sister and mother.
I need to find a job but nobody wants to hire a golden haired male/female.
I'd have dyed my hair brown if my mom told me not to bcos I'd be wasting money and spoiling my hair. I swim and I bleached my hair, it's already double trauma. Dying it again plus I still put wax/clay... don't ask me what will happen. Cos I don't want to experience it.

My mother told me that I must watch what I say bcos she told her mother that she was going to marry a hawker and it really came true.
When she told me that, my heart almost couldn't take it bcos I told her, "Ma the indian newspaper man is my husband"
Hear me whine bcos NO, I don't wanna marry an indian man that's going to deliver newspaper (I'm.. not racist, ok?)


I'm going to make a boardgame. It'd be.. ____ and Larder.
Gimme some ideas ppl.
Ohyeah I'm sorry I didn't reply tags. But, HELLO MYCALENDARGIRL.
Should I have a tagboard and make it easy for spammers to spam my blog.
hmmmmmm.


BTW DOMO, THE DOG IS SO CUTE. (#$^*$_(^&#%

Okay I took a body fat thing and hmmm, I need to lose fats.
Yeah seriously bcos I have too much fats. And... I am at a loss at how to lose them bcos hor, I really don't knw. I exercise and I think I eat quite healthily...... actually no, I've got alot of junk at home. Ok I think I need to detox.
Eh I don't knw man.
Whatever, I want to earn so much money that when my kid or whoever ask me to buy for them smth, I won't need to reject them.
I feel suffocated.

STEPHANIE CARROLL (SPELL? HAHA) TAGGED ME TO DO THIS.


a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
b. tag seven people to do the same.
c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

1.I need to shit everyday otherwise I'd be a grumpy grump
2.I mustttttttttttt eat at least 1 fruit everyday
3.When I run/swim, I only stop at a number I like for the day
4.When I'm lazy, I'm lazy, I don't move
5.I hate it when ___ talks so loudly
6.I don't like ppl pressing the doorbell
7.Don't ever wake me up unless I tell you to

the 7 ppl..
1.Tania soh ahhaha
2.Doralynn
3.whoever
4.that
5.reads
6.my
7.blog
HAHAHA

Yesterday was the worst day of the year so far.
I felt like a piece of lard, or a balloon. No.. not bcos I ate so much goodies. It's bcos I was down with a flu and my uncle gave me some medicine ppl hear it eon years ago and is currently ban ( I THINK), it resulted in my body couldn't take the medicine, and then I felt like I was going to puke but no.. I was not. I felt like I was a very big balloon. It sucks and I was quite grouchy the whole day bcos I was also down with a horrible sore throat.
Bcos I always want to bump into certain ppl at certain places and I don't get to, I've come to terms that the world isn't actually very small. But, when I saw my freaking MANAGER (BETTY) FROM BAKERZIN. SHIT OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
SHE'S MY DISTANT RELATIVE AND SHE WAS THE ONE THAT HYPERVENTILATED WHEN SHE SAW MY HAIR, SHE WENT BERSEK AND SHE COMPLAINED TO THE ONE THAT KEPT ON NAGGING AT ME. I'm sorry but her voice is really irksome, like a frog.
And I can't help it if she just refuses to look at me and wish me happy new year, I think she was quietly hoping that she can get outta the place ASAP bcos she left quite fast after I arrived. Hahahahaha.
but Dude man, I got angbao from my manager's husband. ^^
They gave $8, not bad. But I expected more from the manager. HAHA


It's a fine line between wanting to be thin and obsession.
Sometimes I feel like being an anorexic but when I look at how the obsession is taking a toll over someone so dear to me, I think, I should slap myself a thousand times for even having that thought. And incase you're worried if I'm anorexic, no. I'm not. I can safely say that I'm not, with no doubts.
^^v

So, today's the open house at my place. And I stink. Well, I didn't bathe the day before ytd bcos I was sick. I didn't bathe ytd bcos I was a balloon waiting to pop.

So naturally, I STINK and ppl are coming. Hahahahaha. Too bad, maybe I should fart wherever I go to complete the package. LOL

I'm not the type to forget about nights like this,


I baked soya pineapple tarts, my mother baked kueh bangkit.
You knw that coconut-ty biscuit that melts in yr mouth? Nvm, does anybody want tarts or that kueh bangkit? :D

I'm a happy person tonight, a really happy person tonight.
Pilates really help, not that I've went for the first trial lesson already.
I can safely say that bcos nobody (except dory) knws what the hell I'm talking abt.
Maybe the only thing I'm not very happy abt today is that domo just left for taiwan. Now I've got nobody to disturb and visit whenever I'm bored.

Hmmummmm..


And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be?

Okay so I smiled myself to slp last night. So?
Hahahaha.
Chinese new year is coming soon, not nice, not fun. I don't like the noise, I only like the $$
I'm hoping it wont rain or maybe I do. I wanna go swimming.
My dad's calling me and seriously man.. shhhhhhhh.

After 5days of freezing, walking, eating, shopping kowloon hongkong.
GUESS WHO'S BACK, YO! Hahaha not like you knew I was gone anw, but I don't really care right now. I'm back and I've got a job to keep myself busy with.
Whr are you domo? I got for you pancakes and yr laoPOUbing.

v^^v

I tell you what I did today, I looked thru the answers for the papers I did last year.
I'm scared and it's bcos I'm not freakingly scared. When.. I should be, right?
Hahaha okay, I should go to bed soon.
I had a dream the night before and I was telling myself in the dream that I need to tell Vick abt my dream. You knw I thought I was awake but it was actually me waking up in the dream so technically, I dreamt I woke up.


I've decided, I'm normal. Ry's feeling the same way as I am. So I'm normal ^^v
YAY

I feel like pushing everyone else to the limit, I wanna see their tolerance level. I don't want them to keep on giving in to me, it's becoming an unhealthy habit. I feel like having someone shout at me, tell me that I'm selfish, I'm doing everything all for myself.

Am I crazy, bcos I think ya'll are too nice and I am taking advantage of you you you and you.

So, shout at me? No, not nag.

A few days ago, some guy from overseas called me.
He asked me if I wanted to invest. I took him for a ride before I gave up talking and passed the phone to my mother.
She said "I'm her mother and my daughter's 12 years old so she obviously won't have the money, sorry."

That's random.
Ok, right now, I still don't feel the nervousness for release of results creeping in bcos I am falling aslp.
So clearly, I am still not nervous.

A table has reappeared once again after 2months without it. My room is seriously cluttered and I hope my mom really.. intends to look for another house. I need a room to myself, I like the company I have now but I don't like the baggage. (IE, the cosmetics.. )

It's more or less confirmed now, I'm getting my results on Thurs.
I'm nervous, yes I am. I'm nervous and I'm excited. No not for the bad results.
Haha. And.. there's dory/Daryl's party.
Geez, that girl is really leaving.
I am going to work (hopefully) and save money to go to Sydney and crash her house dolly's car whatever.

I am trying to find someone but hmmm. I think I need more resources. Help, help.

Note to self: rmb domo's hongdou bun otherwise she's gonna die bcos of hongdou drought

My heart sank.

Anna dreamt she scored 21pts. If that's reality, shit, I'm gonna score 31. Hahaha but since dreams are the opposite of reality, I told her she'd score 12.
I did not dream of anything.. But I don't mind 13 points or lesser. :D

So I said I booked the flights for hk already. I did not mention what happened before that. My sis and my mom took me for a ride, telling me the bookings did not go thru which made me supermegairritatinglyvery pissed. I cancelled on my friends for this and now you're telling me it wasn't booked? So yeah, I kinda blew up and I felt bad then, bcos apparently, both of them were behaving like they had halos on their head.
sis: Can you go to my hotmail?
me: wait, LAH. I'm looking at smth
sis: Pleaseeeeeeeee? :D:D:D

How to not feel bad and my mother was beside me, looking at me click anxiously at everything. Even playing along with me, asking me vietnam can anot. And when I clicked onto my sis email, there I saw the email for the confirmed flight itinery.
me: #(*%&#$)*@&%#
All of them burst out laughing and they told me they were trying hard not to laugh behind my back. Literally.

This is not good, my mother told me her mother who is my grandmother, might not be able to live long enough till her next next birthday. Her next birthday is just this sat and I don't knw how am I suppose to feel. I mean, what, I don't exactly talk to my grandmas. The only thing that's bothering me is how.. I'm going to deal when my turn to tell my kids (If there's any) comes. Like.. "yr grandma is going to die"
You knw how much I love my parents and I won't deny that I am slightly biased to my mom bcos really, I don't rmb spending so much time with my dad but that doesn't matter, he's a changed man now. And I should give him the opportunity. .. right?
Why am I saying this, I sound troubled when I'm not.
At least not for now..
I don't knw whr to start.
I've got a problem with pride.

"I like you"

This isn't a very good day, I heard smth I've dreaded since forever. It isn't a good/bad thing, just smth I dread.
And.. I am most likely going to receive my results next week.
I. Am. Dreading. It.

I am changing my biological clock once again, I cannot always sleep so late but I don't mind waking up late.
I'm hooked on Grey's. I feel like hiding in a hole.


"but, I don't like you enough"