crashlikelove : I will work afternoon shifts.. maybe during the following week or smth. I don't knw yet. I'd let you knw so you can come and bug me. I'd make sure I give you the macarons I accidentally poke a hole in HAHAHA ok I'm kidding. Just drop by la!

Gardens is becoming my second home. I went there ytd, today and I'm going again tmr.
I just realized this is the first time I hung out with Ann alone and for so long.
She studied and I read. I don't knw if she managed to study bcos she kept on talking to me halfway.

I think I bumped into quite a lot of ppl recently.
Whether it's at the pool.. gardens.. train station?
Last thing I should do in days to come is to jog on the streets.

Part of me hope Oct doesn't come.
|:
Am off to bed now, goodnight!

crashlikelove: Hahaha we've been friends for sooooo long. Do you not knw I'm a mean person :D HAHAHA Anw yeah la, glyn and I will be working next week. 6 till closing from.... mon- thurs!

mytoesaresexy: chugging along wth hahahaha. ok, i actually want to mail you smth. hmmz.

Although Ann called me all sorts of names today and I think I am becoming overbearing...
it was still a good day.

(:

When I asked for hard to get, I did not mean close to impossible.

Charis- SO DO I. PLUS TRUFFLES MOONCAKE

Mycalendargirl- yes? obviously I think!

crashlikelove- DONT GIVE YOU DISCOUNT hahaha

D- my cousin asked that qns. i think if my mom asks me if im gay... i might just tell the truth haha i miss you moreeee hhahahaha

Eh I don't knw if I want to make mooncake.

My mom thinks its muscles but I think its fats.
Today I had quite an awkward moment, "did any boy take interest in you in sch!"
You tell me how to respond la.

Gave church a miss, I slept at 6 and got up at 12.
To tire myself out, I went swimming so I can slp early tonight.
I ate so much mooncake, I can swear off mooncake for the rest of my life.
And if I'm going to eat them again, I'd... be eating the ones I make.
Decided to go back to bakerzin and work there.
Let's hope the whoever will rmb I'm her relative and hire me back with a higher pay.
Hahaha

Lately, I've been thinking a hell lot.
Like a hell lot.

Today was good.
I woke up, headed to my cousin's house. Came back had dinner, had mooncake for dessert. And set out to j8 to buy even MORE mooncakes.
Got Glyn to help me get bakerzin's one too.
This is the most my mom has ever spent on mooncakes! And we might be making our own ones soon.. Haha. The mooncake frenzy has gotten into our heads.

Headed out to C's place later.
We started burning lanterns. Lighting up sparklers and throwing them up to the trees.
Watching them burn.
It was retarded and yet, fun.
I thought the ppl will call the police since C had her classic screams.
Left at 2? The latest I've ever stayed out since quite long ago.

It's 4 now and I'm dozing off.
Glyn is convincing me to go back to bakerzin! And honestly... I am seriously considering the job.

It's the start of a new day, and I feel like crawling back to sleep.
I had a nightmare last night and woke up feeling flustered.
It was awful. Having yr heart beat so fast.
Even when I run, it's not that fast.

But I'm going to go find a job so.... okkkkkk. I'm off now.
Should I trim my hair? It's getting long but it's not annoying me much. Yet.

Today went on as planned, no sudden back out due to laziness or anything.
And we bladed for a 4 1/2 hours straight.
Never did I blade this long, the most I bladed was 3 hours and ended up with bad abrasions on my leg.
It was fun, we were talking about.... anything. Hahaha
Everytime we say smth along the line of falling, we always nearly slip.
It's a taboo. We must shut up. HAHA.
OK ANW, C, MEET UP TO ROLLERBLADE SOON AGAIN OK.
5 HOURS THIS TIME HAHA.

Okkkk I kinda went to check my GPA? It sucked. -_-

Today we were all suppose to meet up.
Due to laziness and I don't knw what, we all somehow did not meet each other.
Ok, I have a bad feeling abt tmr too..
Instead, I found myself at HGM. I'm becoming a HGM kid already. Yikes.
Borrowed books and met C Ho! To go look for a job at compass.
DON'T TELL YOU WHR.
You're wondering.. of all places I can look for a job for, why there right.
It's bcos I think it's kinda the closest to sch and home.
Hmmmmm and it's air conditioned. Hahaha

My room smells so.. minty right now.
Msn's being a bitch.
Don't knw why it just won't allow me to sign in.

Ann told me ytd that I have a fetish for netball girls.
WTF?! HAHA
Oh she forgot to say, long haired ones especially

Tmr my laptop is going to be at the mercy of my sister.
Not happy, not shiok at all. Didn't you know I'm possessive....
Hahaha whatever.

Did I really sound very very upset ytd? Hmmm.
Today I spent really long hours at the pool.
It was so freaking long. My whole afternoon was gone.
It was evening already when I finally stop to take the longest breath.

I don't knw if it's me.. but ppl around me are quite angsty.
It IS the ppl around me.
Alright, I got chocolate with whiskey mooncake!

This is for Tania

Ok, I said I did not want to blog bcos I might end up wallowing in self pity.
But I'd just blog for youuuuuu hahaha

We were in the same class for POA for two years. And I only started talking to you in the middle of the 2nd year. The number of times I talked to you during sec 3 could be counted by the time I ate pork. (HAHA)

I don't knw abt you, but I love yr company.
It's never boring with you around, I'm always laughing. And I always feel like I might get a sorethroat whenever I hang out with you.

It is almost a year since we talked now.. and I'm glad we're still keeping in contact even after sec sch. Making an effort to hang out every second sat of the month.
I've mentioned it before that there are so many ppl in my life that I'd never ever want to lose.
And I'm glad to tell you that You're one of them.
Thanks for being there, always.

So cheesy but I love you.

(Now dont knock on my window in the morning and I'd love you more hahaha)

Hey, at least I tried right?
It's not like I was expecting anything.
Ok my bad, I was silently hoping for a different reply.
There was this faint glimmer of hope.
It feels like a lot of things happened today but no, only one thing happened. One significant thing happened and it happened fast.
My days are getting shorter and my nights are getting longer.

It's my sister's birthday today. I get the feeling that she might have been looking forward to see us at her place today... But we all did not turn up.
We decided to change the surprise till when she returns from Japan.
By far, she's one of the most sensitive person I've came across so.. I am not sure if she might be feeling upset.
I just hope nothing goes wrong.

Yay I got a new pair of shoes and swimming costume.
I don't knw what else to say, I'm afraid I might wallow in self pity.
I'm going off to bed earlier today and swim my brains away and find a freaking job tmr.

Ask me, and I'd tell you I'm scared.

This morning was the best, I slept at 7 and got up at 1 plus.
I wanted to go for a run but I need to leave for church already.
I'm lazy.. but I'm not particularly tired.
I don't feel like going to church :(

I need to start looking for a job, to get pass my time.
This week is going to be better..
I'm hanging out with my poly mates on wed.. Then C on thurs!

Changes for me are never too drastic.. I mean, I went from the earliest to sleep in the house to the latest.
From the earliest to get up to the latest to get up.
From the earliest to eat breakfast, now there's no breakfast..

I was hired 2days ago, now I'm fired. Haha ok not fired, I didn't get the job.
I was preparing to go to HK, now I'm going to be stuck in Sgp.
If only... my father printed money.
If only... it's actually okay to travel alone and not feel alone.
I think I cannot be alone and if I am, I cannot stand walking around without music.
I'm insecured.
Is that what you call me?

It's 210 now.
Do you think I'm queer if I said I want to get up at 5 later. As in 5pm.
It's like how I tell myself I want to continue running even if my legs hurt.
Told you changes for me are never too drastic.

Yesterday saw me... nuah-ing the whole entire day away.
My sister was talking to me and within 30secs, I stared into blank space.
Later, we were sitting infront of the tv watching Fantastic 4, hiding under the comforter.
It was the ultimate nuah day. I had a surprise visit and got brownies. :D
Then later my sis and I went down to gardens, I looked like I was going for a jog in slip ons. Hahahaha but whatever

My folks came back at abt... 10-11 plus with durians from GENTING.
And I had to open it. My mother said the way I opened it looked scary but hers was no better. The newspaper rotated 360degrees when she was prying it open.
There was a heart shaped durian and I was saying that was my heart. The next moment, there was a freaking rotten durian inside it.

Fuck. My heart is rotten. Hahaha now, they're going to continue the durian opening partII.
Ok my sister wanted to appear in the blog.
So yeah she said hello.
She's so lame.

My sister's friends are coming over. Totally taking the opportunity to mess up the house with the rest of the family not home.

I got so much free time on my hands, I want to go HK.
I want to get out of Sgp. I don't mind if I go to Genting actually........
But I'd want to go alone.
I think I want to go hiking.
Haha I wonder how's life without any connections from the world.

I borrowed alot of shows to get by my time! Watch it's a boy girl thing.
Makes you go all awwww haha and it's hilarious!

First step I'm taking, erasing the exclamation mark from the name.
Next, I'd erase everything.
One step at a time..

I don't care if my hamstring feels like its going to break down.
All I want to do now.. is to go for a run.

I was suppose to be baking the crumble two hours ago but due to certain circumstances, I was unable to bake it on time and now.. I'm waiting for it to be done.
I dreamt I got bitten by a dog again. It looks like the same dog.
I told my mom and she said maybe there was someone talking abt me behind my back. It took me a while to figure it out and then.. it hit me.
What sia, who the hell is bitching abt me.
So we came to the conclusion that someone in my family is bitching abt me bcos of what happened inside the dream.
And she laughed. I asked if she bitched abt me. She laugh even more and asked me back, you think I will talk abt you?
Then.. I said, yeah of cos but then again you will talk it in my face hor.

I just went to find my phone AND I HAD THE BIGGEST SHOCK OF MY LIFE WHEN I WAS CALLING IT I HEARD THE VIBRATION NEAR THE OVEN.
MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT BCOS I THOUGHT I WAS BAKING MY PHONE AND THEN I STARTED TO IMAGINE I SMELLED A METALLIC AROMA.
...
BUT THANK GOD.
HAHA. My mother is some..... I can't call her dumb shit bcos I'm her daughter which makes me dumb shit's daugheter = dumber shit. But wtf, she kept things without opening her eyes, she kept my phone inside her i-dont-knw-what-issit-used-for-in-the-kitchen-kit and kept it inside the cardboard which was directly above the freaking oven.
And I was this close to thinking, I'm a genius. I leave my phone inside the oven and bake it.

Mothers. Geez.
Anw, I've got holidays till Oct... smth.
I'm so free but I don't want to go to Genting. My parents are going genting tmr. K la go, dont come back anymore. Just give me whatever money you have left and pls tow back the car thanks :D

I'm glad I'm out of a sch that have teachers read blogs very occasionally.
I can freely (not really) talk abt anything I want. Although I am not the type to curse and swear or defame someone.. It still feels weird to have teachers reading abt yr daily activities and lets say you like someone, they are going to guess who.
But since I'm out of sec sch already, I can almost talk abt anything I want.

I hear thunder and I'm this close to not going for the race. I'm staring at the shirt, contemplating. If it rains.. they'd have to postpone the race. And I'd be wasting my time over there. It's so dark outside.
Church or race?



Play?.. Nobody in their right mind wants to play a losing game.

I'm scared if I do smth, it'd be too much. And I'd scare you away. But I'm also scared, if I don't do anything, I'd be losing you without even trying.
All I need.. is like a simple.. sign. But then again.. ahhh.

Steph, I kinda give you the right to slap me.
Oh, v.. domo whoever my good friends are.

I woke up feeling quite.. angsty.. confused? I don't knw how I was feeling.
I went for a run.
Later I decided to draw on the walls of my room and paint it.
So now.. I kinda got an eiffel tower over there. Hahaha.
V came over and I reckon the nicest building is drawn by her.
My sister said she would help, she disappeared after saying she wanted to grab mooncake.
Its 1210 now, my mother is baking bread!
My parents with my brother and his gf are leaving for Genting next week.
I'd have the whole house to myself bcos my sister will be at my brother's place working.

K I took like an hour to type this blog post and it's not even long.
I sincerely hope that homo won't put my pictures while we were webcaming earlier on.
!!! Tsk


But yr heart's with someone else.

It was going to be quite a happy night.

I'm over at my cousin's place. I want to go swimming but.. gahhh, my best friend is here. Hahaha it's a sign.
TODAY MARKS THE END OF MY EXAMS!!!!!
Like it is a very big deal, it was only 4 papers.
After chionging my guts out for O's, I feel so lazy to do anything else.
1 paper also feel like dying already.

I was watching a show and the whole... story seemed strangely familiar to me.
But oh well, the week's been pretty great for me.
Oh, you knw why :D
Hahahaha

I wanted to slp at 11 last night, I ended up tossing on my bed for the next 1 and a half hour. The blocked nose was robbing me away my slp and I could have so take a book to read and just forgoed sleep? There was a test the next day unfortunately.

It was okay, not incredibly hard but not incredibly easy. The MCQ was a breeze though.
Thurs the last paper!
I'm not studying, I certainly haven't been studying for the past few hours since I reached home.
I got the pictures of the family portrait.
I looked like @$#*&$. Seriously my eyes were.. half closed or looking at the ceiling
geez. And in pictures that actually dont have so much of me looking up.. someone else in my family will look ????? Haha the skinniest was complaining abt her face being fat.
How ironic ain't it. Thank God I wasn't home to listen to the whines. I would have killed myself and put my pictures to good use. For funeral la dey.


There's so many things..... and,
Tmr would be a good day.
:)

Definitely maybe

Today is such a gloooomy day :(

All of a sudden, I cannot wait for next year.
It will be such an eventful year. I'd be turning 18, my sister will be turning 21.
We'd be celebrating our bdays on Apr 1, I think? That's what we discussed.
Celebrating our major bdays together..
And one more thing, I'D BE ABLE TO LEARN DRIVING. I CANNOT WAIT REALLY CANNOT WAIT.
No more will I bug the drivers in my house to fetch me somewhr and no more will I be complaining to my father abt my brother hogging the car, I can be the biggest bitch and hog the car now.
Hahahahhaa of cos I can't be, if there's my sister who's learning it now...

I'm supposed to be studying.. but what am I doing?
I'm waiting for the person to get back to me. I'm hoping for an Ipod touch.
Hahaha this is so... touch and go kind of thing.
I didn't even plan for it, I saw it, I got so tempted and I went to bid for it.
This is called impulsive buyer, not good at all.
Maybe it's the stress from all the exams.

I said my mom just returned from Genting a few days ago right.
Infact, 2 days ago.
GUESS WHAT? SHE IS GOING TMR. AGAIN.
but with my dad this time.
Simi lai eh, what's so nice abt genting.
I told you already, they got kids there and plan to abandon me here with my brother.

I want to paint my room, I want to get a job.
I don't wanna sit at home and waste time away. $5 an hr is better than $0 right?
hahaha anw, if you're a good drawer ( V!) and if you're free... maybe you can help me along with the painting of my room? :D
I am planning to change how my room looks like.
I don't really care if it's going to be rented out.
I just wanna do smth.

Pro is when you can watch tv and type at the same time.
I always have distractions at the wrong time.
I'm suddenly into watching tv, and my exams is just the week after.
Not funny, I got so many distractions.
I attempted to study earlier on, I ended up on my bed slping for the next hour.

My mom and my sis is coming back from Genting tonight!
They gambled (I think) their money away or spent on thousand eyelashes (my sister is a fan of them since she doesnt have any haha). They ran out of money and guess what! My mother didnt bring her credit card. Too bad lor, no $$$. Left with my sis atm card, her acc only got SGD73. Tell me how to survive, she confirm buy 10 thousand more boxes of eyelashes lor.
Gotta call their saviour a.k.a me, to transfer money into my sister's bank acc with the miserable amount of money.

I'm so corny its not even funny,
if I'm a vegetable, confirm plus chop is corn already.

I took a family portrait the other day. Come over to my place soon and you'd see that my smile is not like this :}, it's.. :D WITH TEETH.
WITH TEETH I CANNOT IMAGINE HOW I LOOK LIKE.
Bcos Ive never really liked smiling with teeth...
And I knw how many ppl always ask, "why everytime ---- dont smile with teeth, nice meh"
I don't knw abt the rest, but I have my reasons. Hahaha yeah everyone has their reasons..
I'm leaving for church! It's been abt.. 2 weeks since I've not gone to church.
Talk about slack.

Went to grapevine ytd. Domo didn't come and caveman came!
If V wasn't my gooooooooood friend since pri sch, I would have ham tam her and feed to the dogs.
But she's so cute, I can't bear to kill her. So I kicked her. HAHAHA.
And caveman always have a different story everytime she comes, I don't want to believe what she say already lor.
"I'm serious! We didn't ------------ laaaaa"

My mom is going to bake pineapple tarts on a national day.

Exams are coming in two weeks! Geez.
Oh go watch definitely maybe! haha surprisingly, its not bad. :D
Grrrr. I should get back to studying.

I'm actually.. waiting?

I'm not asking for it.


I got alot of pictures to show the world.
But my hair is so short, I don't wanna show yet. Unless I can think of ways to photoshop more hair. HAHAHA
Ok la, my hair isnt that bad. I'm so whiney, I can't stand myself.
I'm quite tired so I will go off.
I told Meryl I'd help upload, I've uploaded. But it's in my other computer and when she's online, I'm using my lappy. Grr.

I might go to Vietnam next week with ppl I don't knw.
It's so scary and time consuming. I don't really want to be spending my hols in Vietnam studying :(

Notes to self:
-get down to studying
-upload dammit pictures!!
-go to SLP NOW

I attempted to cut my hair today but I think there's no difference.
I need to go for a haircut soon, my hair belly mushhhloom lehzxzxzz.

It's my grandma's bday today and I was suppose to go for the celebration.
I'm stuck at home, trying to finish my project.
Sometimes I think, friends should never be in the same group.

Ahwell.
I have the sudden urge to listen to John Mayer and back off. Whoohoo

This is so true.
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

One two three (maybe a thousand) steps late, sigh.
Haha.
Sigh what sigh right.

I swear the heat in Sgp is killing me.
I've been building up heat inside me. No.. I'm not angry, its just REALLY VERY HOT.
I'm not perspiring and yet I still feel so so hot.
Like a kind of warmth inside me.
I feel happy and yet not happy.
I feel like I need to go out and have a small little jog. Lol.

I don't knw what to blog!
My tattoo is scabbing now and I'm itching to scratch it.
Ok actually I scratched it and the ink cant go away.. Yeah obviously since its a tattoo.
I'm typing rubbish, I don't knw what to say.
I got a test tmr, I die die MUST pass and ontop of that, get good grades.
I really really wanna get good grades :(
What am I ranting about.
Ummmmz...

V stayed over last last night and D left last night.
She'd be back soon soon soon. Hopefully for christmas :)



I have this... feeling that if I accidentally scratch my tattoo, it'd be gone. Like how you scratch the scab away. It's all so so surreal, I'm abit shocked by what I did. It feels like a tongue piercing moment, like I wanna get it, I get it now.
Thing is, I knw I won't regret.( I LOVE MY NAME HAHAHA) I never regretted my tongue piercing anyway, there are other reasons why I took it out.
I have yet to tell my dad, my brother and my sister.
I'm not sure abt my dad, but I think my brother and sister will be.... like omggggggggggg ^($^*#($*#Q(. Eldest brother was pretty cool about it. That's the whole cool thing about having a brother that's pretty gay. In a happy kind of way and a gay gay kind of way. HAHA. Of cos cherry is fine with it, so long I'm ok and I love it, she will be fine with it :D

My parents are at Genting again..
I reckon my mom is going to come back with all the big bag small bag of beans/nuts/raisins whatever whichever. She knws I like it so she'd buy x1000, funny how my mother don't really buy snacks for my sister, I think my mother secretly wants me to grow fat.
Like pau, she knws I like it, she'd make alot alot. Eck.
I think I'm getting abit sick of all that.

Do you always behave like that to everybody?

Today is my super nua + virgin tattoo day!
Legs are aching from sprinting by myself a few days back and I read somewhr that when it's sore and you still continue, muscles will build. And if you've seen me recently, wo bian da le. :( Oh, the woes of a girl. HAHA (sounds weird when I say it)
Anw, I'm just going to rest today and quit being a weekend warrior.

I've got a test early in the morning tmr and I behave like I got nothing at all.
I can't wait to get inked later. With Domo and C and my two of my favourite classmates there.. I'm scared I cry if it gets too painful. Lol. I don't really cry.. I only cry when I think I'm going to die either bcos of pain or heartbreak. HAHA.
But anw, you never knw. Even though C assured me.. I'm still afraid. And if it happens, ohman, so paiseh.

I really lost the mojo to blog and my sister is telling me about her story book. I'm hardly tuning in but I'm just nodding my head. Lol, cannot believe that just last night, she asked me to shut up and slammed the door on me.
If I didn't control, I would have asked her what was her fucking problem. I don't really say vulgarities, you knw? (must be all my poly mates that has influenced me, bitch has become our everyday language)
Ah well, we're sisters.
How angry can we ever get with each other?

Comparing myself to the old me, I'm very much slack now.
That's why I am at where I am right now.
With determination, I will reach where I want to be.
Yea, I will.
Last thing I really need right now is a freaking distraction.

I am tired, I think I am going to slp already.
Even though my classmates and I talk about almost the exact same thing everyday, sch's never boring with them around.
With so much class politics, I'm quite glad to say that my group of friends are just the listeners and not actually part of it. You knw? Like not being involved, not backstabbing each other...
:D

I'm going to get inked. I told my mom that I want to but I haven't told her I'm GOING to. So........ maybe tmr? Lol.

I wanted to blog but I feel like I lost my mojo again.
I am out of canoeing and I feel bad.
But it beats having the shirt and then later quit right.
There's a mock test tmr which I'm absolutely unprepared for.
MY GRP SCORED THE HIGHEST FOR THE THE HNT PROJECT! 0:D

I forgoed church again. I've been sleeping 2-3hours past bedtime for the past few nights, one was because I was watching GG, the other was bcos I was hanging out with my cousins.. I'm sorry that I did not hang out with you guys (meaning V, D,... ) \:
My cousin is leaving on tues night for her attachment and the other will leave before the other comes back.
Everyone's leaving :(
I hope D doesn't leave in the morning otherwise I wont be able to send her off, AGAIN.

Went for the musical last night where I believed I have behaved really unexpectedly. My friends must be horribly embarrassed. Thanks Ann even though she is more than likely not to read this. HAHA.
She's a caveman that only crawls into the modern society once in a while. Sigh.

I had a dream of my teeth having a gap. It's a nightmare,truly. It doesn't help when D said my teeth is getting slanted. I must be eating too much.......... what? I don't knw. -_-

I'm not durian head, I'm Zeus. hahahahahaha

What did I say about durians? Oh, it turns out that my brother bought some of them back with his girlfriend earlier. After much persuasion from.. who? No one else but me. Actually no la, my sister. Hahaha I did not eat as much as I used to. My stomach must be getting smaller :D
I am finally going for the 9am lecture tmr, wish me.. all the best. If you're in my class or you knw my daily activities, you will knw that the only time I ever made it to the 9am lect was on the first week they ever had lectures. And then that was that, till now.. I hope I will really wake up and drag myself there.
It's time for some serious self discipline.
Turns out that the lect that I forgoed today was actually canceled! Thank God I felt incredibly lazy to go to my sch.. othewise I would have spent my hours cursing over there.

Steph said my blog was getting too happy.
Issit better this way or would you rather I be an emonemo? |:

I spent today watching Gossip girls. I couldn't bring myself to watch it earlier cos.. it seemed too cheesy -_-
But anw, I was totally bored after watching a babbooon took a baby away in Africa, so I decided to watch that show.
And now, I think I'm quite hooked on it.
The two leads. They're gorgeous *.*

My msn is being such a bitch. Grrrrr.

I woke up the latest AGAIN today despite sleeping the earliest. I only woke up at 0950 and my mom and sister were outta sight. I think they went to help in the filming.
My dad was already preparing.. brunch. My brother was about to go into the showers before I managed to chiong in before him and took my place at the throne in the toilet. *laughs
HAHA so sorry it's been so long since I did that kind of star* thing. It's amusing me right now.

I'm not going to church today bcos I strongly think I will fall aslp since I can only stay awake in pastor prince's or mark's or whoever's except some caucasian's sermon.

Domo came over to my place ytd and we tried playing Wii. I'm the owner and I didn't manage to figure out how to use the remote as a steering wheel before she could.
She says my house is like NTUC which I agree. I got almost everything, from almost all the diff kinds of fruits (if she came later at night, there would actually be the real durian sitting on the table waiting for someone none other than yours truly to come eat), to all the diff colours of choc (not pink yellow or red choc, i mean dark white and milk la haha), to diff kinds of ice creams. Ok I shouldn't go on.. but there's one thing that I really have all diff kinds. I've got durian chips, frozen durian, and fresh durian!!!
I'm sorry but it's not my fault. I admit I was crazy over durian last time but now.. it's too much. Cannot take it already, my dad is feeding me with too much of it. I'm getting sick of chocolates too.


Met up with V and D later at our favourite (haha) hangout.
Before that, I think the ppl at the mrt station thought I was about to bomb the place. Esp since Domo made me repeat what she sang.
"Sex bomb sex bomb, you're my sex bomb" LOL.

Went to V's place and we made an amazing discovery over there.
We realized that the colour of my leg, my toes is the same colour as her parquet floor. You knw those wood lookalike floor?
If you knw, you will know how dark my leg is right now.
And it's not funny at all that everytime I meet them again, somewhr will grow bigger. Whether it's there.. or there.
Geeeeeeeeeeez.

:(

I was looking at my reflection in the mirror just a few minutes ago and I just realized how superbly black I am.
Like burnt black, black. I'm no longer coffee coloured, my black is, the carbon burnt part of bread colour that I always bite first whenever I eat the bread that my mom bakes.
I woke up the latest today despite sleeping the earliest.
It's not like I woke up at 12, I woke up at 9 plus plus. And my house is almost empty, with my brother already all dressed up to go for his job interview.
My father went for an adventure race (so cute haha). I think my mother and sister went to help with the filming.. uhmmmm.

It's been so long since I touched any weights and the paddle, no wonder my arms are aching from ytd's paddling. Ok maybe it's bcos it's The time of the month. Hahahahaa.
That explains my moody-ness.

I feel like running a marathon, like go get myself burnt even more (im just kidding) under the hot sun right now and just run till... I feel I should stop. But I knw I won't, bcos if I'm really this crazy.. I'd already be on the quest of going around the world on barefoot.
I don't think I'm speaking any sensible stuff this morning.
If this is a sign, I think it can only be that I just need a new kick in my life.

Lol.

I thought my blog was quite hard to find bcos my friends have been trying to google it. And like after quite a long time, there are still some that hasn't quite figured my link out yet.
And yet, it is still not as discreet as what I would like to think it is bcos.. I still find my link on blogs that I don't personally knw the person or, am not linked to.

Uhm. Sam might be reading this. So, hello! haha
I think I am going to be more careful in what I type about canoeing here already haha for eg, the real reasons why I pon trg.
I will shut up :D I will still go for trg..

I'm damn sian today, I took a cab down to sch at 1330.
I was procrastinating and I gave up. I went to sch and was on time.
I had my sister (haha it's a HE btw) to help me print my project so in the end, when initially thought I would be rushing like mad, I could actually have enough time to stroll to the clubhouse.
Ok la I did not stroll, but from the time I got there and the time that we started, I could walk to and fro more than once.


Seriously, what's wrong with me today.
I am in the mood for those 90s songs.

I am so bored, like seriously bored bored.
I am browsing through ljs, blogs and.. what else are there.
I am so lazy to go for class but I will go go go go go go go.
I've been way too much a slacker already.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZ.
But maybe I will let myself be a slacker for one more day...... :D

I've received comments abt my blog being emo.
Didn't really bother abt it till Steph commented on it again..
So OK I will make my blog not emo.
It's not intentional that my blog is emo, it's the way I type.
I find it hard to type happily.
Ok, this is my first attempt.
:D I am so happy today :D
bcos I saw D today :D
We went back to PL today :D
And I met quite a few ppl :D
I wanted to see the new sec 1s but gave up :D

....
I think I fail. Hahaha

"You've got wits,
You've got looks,
You've got passion,
But I swear that you've got me all wrong."

Today I went to sch early but became late bcos I was waiting for my friend to chiong to the lift in heels.
Today I had presentation and it kinda sucked but I did what I could, and.. although honestly, I think I could have done more, it's all over. So what the heck.
Today I went for trg. I'm getting.. quite.. hmmm. I don't know what to describe.
My mom rather I quit, she's scared I faint and drown in the reservoir/sea.
Like those dragonboat-ers, the guy that recently drowned.
My friend and I came up with this weird bet that I cannot eat pao, she cannot eat watermelon.
Eh my blog very boring.
I don't even knw why I'm typing all this shit out.
Ohyaaaa, I was watching L word in my sch's library to pass my time.
Awesome!

Yay yay yay
^^

I'm waiting for time to pass till 11 before I leave my house to go to ubin.
My parents dont even knw I'm going there, they're alway in genting.
My mom called last night to give both my sister and I a goodnight kiss. Awwwww :D
I think my dad must have done smth very sweet or smth, my mom is extraordinarily..... hmm. Close. HA-ha.

This is room is so hot..
So I really skip trg last night and came home to eat the oilest pasta I've ever eaten bcos there was another guy there so I am technically not the brightest lightbulb anymore.
I did not really eat the pasta bcos, I honestly really don't like it. But I tried the garlic bread and chicken.
I won't say my brother's cooking failed.... but, I think he could have done much better.
I had a hard time washing the grease off the pan. Eew.

I suddenly appreciate my mom's cooking more than ever. Speaking of whom.. THEY ARE COMING BACK TONIGHT.
Shit I behave like they went for a whole entire year when they only went for 2days.

My sister is off at my grandma's place..... my brother is at home... Lazing...


yes no maybe so? :) :| :(

Ubin ubin ubin!

I'm waiting for the cd to be ripped before I go off to bed..
I've got a new phone, N81 ( yeah I knw the model is abit old but i really like it alot!!) and.. A new lappy.
BUT unfortunately, I dropped Redish (my red psp) and it is now spoilt. It'd need 100dollars to repair them.. This is the time where I really wish $$ would just drop them from heaven literally.
Imagine if money could really drop down.... $.$ seriously..

My parents are currently at Genting, again again again. AGAIN!!!
UH, this time, they went for 2days. Normally they go for 1 day only..
:(
This is called, missing the folks syndrome.

My hands are aching, but I still don't feel like running. I had a scare of my knees behaving weirdly so from now till I arrive in Thailand, I am going to swim swim swim.

This is so random, but I don't knw how I look girly. I cannot rmb. HAHAHA.
I think I'm too ego, bcos I am not straight neither am I crooked. I don't like anyone or at least I don' think I do.
Uh, this is a sign, I love myself too much ah-ha!
I'm skipping trg tmr bcos, I wanna be home to be the brightest lightbulb at home. My brother is cooking and his gf is coming over.
Sorry la, if I don't stay home, my sister will be the brightest lightbulb. Must save her, LAH.

Done ripping, I'm going off to bed.
Ohyeah, I've kinda shifted to my brother's ex room.
My sister is too noisy for my slp

I look like a zombie now bcos there's purple mud on my face. This mud is known to help soothe the face, it's not called facial...
Oh who am I kidding. There's a facial mask on my face now. Been pretty long since I put it.

Today was an ordinary day for all of you but it was different for me. I woke up early.. to go for mini mini marathon. Hahahaha it's my first and it's a 5km race.
(All of us need to start small) I came in 3rd for my category. Seems like my legs can make a living of its own. ^^v

It's so fast, sch is reopening tmr. I was laying in bed last night, thinking, considering my options. I wonder if I should quit canoeing. Sometimes, I don't find myself up to it. Or rather, I don't feel like pushing myself too hard sometimes too. When I knw my limit, I will want to push it. I don't knw my limit yet so I don't want to push it. I knw you don't understand what I'm talking but I do.
And another downside, I don't wanna have a lightbulb shape... :(

My sister is reciting japanese phrases now.. my dad has been buying much durian.. My parents are going genting (AGAIN OMG) this thurs. For 2 days, this time. I think they got a family there that I don't knw that they're abandoning the ones they have now in sgp.

2nd of July, come quick!

I am feeling super warm now. I feel like slping.
I slept late and woke up early today for trg. It was raining so we barely did anything except to do many pushups and jumping jacks under the rain. That was our punishment bcos we disappeared without telling the captain or anybody that we went to play seesaw and dino rides. =|
Hmmm... my mom steamed pau for me last night and baked bread for cherry and I. She's scared we'd starve to death when she goes to Genting (YES, again) with my father.
I reckon they're going there before the fuel prices shoot up even higher. But I'm going to BKK next month! Yes, you got that right. Next month. Got school, I knw. But off peak and I'd only miss 1 tutorial :D
Zzzzz The only reason I'm not taking a nap right now is bcos I'm dying trying to find a hotel.

Ok. :0 im yawning.


093467

I thought I heard some packing of bags.. But nah, I must imagining things.
Isit bad of me as a daughter to wish that her parents are seperated.
It's not all the time that I'm like that, but on a night like this, after what we talked..
You two are better off without each other sometimes.
I feel suffocated in this place too. And we wonder why we can't live happily ever after.
If there was no love in the first place, why marry?
The reason I don't wanna marry is almost as if it's because the marraiges I see that plays a part in my life don't work as well as everybody else wants them to be.
Yeah I knw, there are always ups and downs. But why do we only rmb the downs.
I stay here, I don't knw if you knw, what you say or do, it hurts.
Am I not good enough for you that things are not how it's supposed to be.
Can you tell that I am working hard too? Why do you only see the side where I am not as good.
Indeed, we're all humans. We are all quick to judge, all quick to pinpoint the mistakes of others.
You said you failed as a wife, a mom.
Seems like despite what I've tried to do, tried to show, I've failed as yr daughter too.

I am so... slpy. I'm sitting on my bed now as I type this out.
My parents are on their way back now from Genting, I hope.
The house is pretty quiet without my mother stressing herself out in the house.
I'm really going to fall aslp in a few minutes time. The aircon is blowing my eyes close.
Went for the amazing race ytd, my team is DE best. We gave up on the first station, we were super turned off by the "The quest, the quest..." cheer. Wanna guess what our first station was about? Find 3 flowers in botanical garden and draw it. It's... not hard if we were really enthu about it. It was just that we were tired and rather more in the mood to do smth stupid so we kinda stopped. Kudos to those that finished and won the prize anw. Hahaha.
We wanted to watch a movie, but 2 of them didnt wanna watch narnia and I didnt wanna watch chocolat. Too much time was spent on deciding what we wanted to do, before we know it, we were on the bus to the finishing point to collect our goodie bags.
I was psycho-ing them to give up, it's so far.
But noo... we went and we left the place with 13 goodie bags.
We are a group of 5. We left with 13 goodie bags.
Don't look at me, I took only one 1! My team mates, they're incredible. We seperated the stuff inside, I got one that has all the milo now. Going to bring that for the rest during trg, obviously. Too much milo can kill me. Hahaha. We each took magazines and my friend took back the excess to uh, sell to garung guni. -_-

Well that aside, I sat a motorcycle home on friday night!!!!!!!!!!
It was damn cool and, dangerous la of cos. My mother was on the verge of freaking out when I told her that I sat a motorbike home. Yeah.. okay, I won't take it again. But I won't deny that it IS a fun experience. And if the dangers aren't there, I will certainly take it again. :D:D Heh heh.

The ppl that are filming at my place are wasting my time. Not that it's my brother's fault, it's the ppl. I stayed home ytd and they didn't come.
I could have gone to Paddy's party or smth but hmm. I needed to stay home.
They're coming later, they better. Otherwise.. I'd steal the laptop that is downstairs.

I've got 2 tests coming up next week. I failed my intH&T test. How did that happen? I was clueless as to what to study, I didn't go study.
Tell me how to get scholarship like that.
=(

My timetable don't look intimidating now, but.. in a matter of A month, I think I'd be in a panic.
Projects due one after another, it's only the first semester and I have this unspoken fear inside me. Yet I need to make this work, I cannot and won't allow myself to fail if I want to have a scholarship.
I need to push myself very hard. But one part of me is ignoring what I'm telling myself, I have this urge to just sleep thru tmr's morning.
... It's just lecture.
Grrrr.

My brother's in one of the countries in Europe.
2 rooms in my house are gonna be used for filming purposes, a show for kids central.
A close friend (i'm not sure if i can put her name..) got a tattoo today.
I'm getting mine next year on 15 apr. It has been on my mind for 2 years! The thought would have been fulfilled if I had known what design I wanted but anyway, I shall start thinking of what I wanna have on my ankle. I think ankles are nice. .. yes no? Haha
School and trgs have been nice and fun.
It's more like a playtime.

Don't doubt me, I love my family very much. But there are just times, all I wanna do is be away from them and live Anywhr else but here.

I know it's been long..
Quite a few events happened recently and I sincerely hope that my period is coming bcos I was on the verge of tears when I heard a certain someone would be leaving.
I don't want to be stuck in the same cycle.
My mom's bday and mother's day happened last/this week.
I have this weird obsession with pao now and I think my mother is more than happy to make them for me. She's so enthusiastic when it comes to things I wanna eat that's related to bread, rice whichever whatever. HAHA. She's been making them non stop, ok la, thats also bcos I've been bugging her to make different kinds of pao for me.

Awwwww, sense the mother love now? HAHA
Ok i'm kidding.
I am going to slp now, i have a longggg day tmr. Its not funny at all.
But like I told R, sch's fun fun fun fun fun. (Or so we psycho ourselves to believe hahaha)

Ni hon ga wa ka ri ma sen.
Ei go ga wa ka ri mas ka?
I can still rmb simple phrases of where is the ___ in japanese. It's quite funny bcos when I asked, I didn't understand the reply. LOL.
I've been traveling a hell lot but my mother is no better, she's currently in Bangkok. After.. uh, 1 week? from Tokyo
Anw,
It's just a brief number of photographs of there. It's nice but sometimes I feel it's overrated. And I realize why they used transparent umbrellas. The wind there is so strong, they need transparent umbrella so that they can block the wind infront of the them and be able to walk forward.
Hahaha not like sgp will ever need that la. So, this is Tokyo, Japan. ^^
Did I tell you, I bought myself Wii? hahahahahaha

I.. have no mood to blog. I am having orientation tmr and I'm thinking of reasons not to go orientations. I hate orientations, you knw? Ok, actually I'm just thinking of reasons not to get up early in the morning.
I am so upset that I blew up my Wii adapater.
Or rather, I am so upset hoping that it's the adapter that I blew up last night and not the console.

These are just less than a quarter of the pictures taken from my previous trip in Beijing and Hong Kong. We, or rather my sis, took the pictures (she's aspiring to be a photographer btw) Anyway.. let them do the talking for the time being.























Domo, V, C, D, whoever, I miss you.
And so sorry, domo, I will really buy red bean pancake if I see one ok. And bring back somemore r...wife's biscuit for you.
Till then, I'd see you guys.
Happy tahan-ing the raising temps in Sgp, I'd be chilling my ass off in TOKYO/HONGKONG ^^

I am.. trying to catch my breath here bcos I'm reading all sorts of weird things.
I still think I am a victim of apr fool's joke and YET, part of me believes what is going on. It is unbelievable.
The more they tell me, the more I am starting to doubt it actually. Hahahhaa but whatever la.
Anyway, to those that asked abt my head, it's muchhh better now. Thanks. :)
I got a hair cut recently and my fringe is.. uh, gold now.
It doesn't help at all when all I wear now is a polo shirt and berms to go wherever I go (which are heartland areas), sitting by the staircase, I am just missing one cig between my fingers to complete the image of an ahbeng.
^^v


Birdney Spears: humpty bumpty says:
this is..
Birdney Spears: humpty bumpty says:
amusement la

man... seriously, this is not shit.
This is amusement, LA.

btw, I got a job at a yogurt counter today and I'm going to work tmr. Just like that. How cool's that?

I believe my mom isn't having her period anymore but she's the one behaving like she's in hormonal distress.
I'm sorry that I am the cause of it but, I'm sure there's a better way to deal with it.
Why do I feel like the fall is sometimes a blessing in disguise (to her) than to anyone else. Ok, the blessing was to actually help me but uhhhhh.. Ohkay I don't really knw how to describe how I feel.
It's funny to think abt it that I blacked out in yoga and fell backwards and hit my head but it's absolutely not funny at all to have sleepless nights bcos I cannot slp well due to the huge bump and how I cannot go trim my hair now fearing that the hairdresser might accidentally comb onto the bump and causing me to wince and how I cannot fall aslp in the bus bcos the bus will cause me to move involuntarily and then hit my head.

Ohno.. I feel like the bump on my head is causing me to be at war with everyone else.
No, it is causing my mom to be at war with everybody else.
My mom is shouting at my manager now.
My mom shouted at the yoga place.

Ohgod Ohgod Oh Lord save me.

It's one of the worst days since the year started.
I blacked out during yoga whilst bending backwards and I have a huge bump behind my head now.
I was angry with my mother bcos there was more talk abt how irresponsible the management of the place were than the bruise on my head.
It did not help when she was raising her voice when she talked to me.
Anw, I am supposed to be very drowsy bcos I took the medicine.
My mom is going to kick up a fuss.
Ahwell.

I arrived back in sgp ytd, still feeling a tad of the waves I was experiencing the day before when I was in the boat.
I had alot of fun and I'm trying hard (can you tell?) to let whoever that reads my blog know that. But I knw I sound extremely dead and I really don't knw why.
I climbed great wall, I visited the outside of Forbidden Palace, I went into Summer palace. And I have a friend that looks like Empress Cixi. Hahahaha.
I'm so lazy to blog y'knw, but I cannot not say this.

My pastor thought I was a guy today.

I dont miss you no more

HALLLLLO im home ! from chinaaa , and hongkong .
i bet no one knew i was gone from sg -.-
so it's freeezing cold over there, i had to wear about 5 layers of clothes so that i dont freeze my ass off.
the food is fantastic with the abundance of fish and veggies :D
but really oily though, i must go for yoga soon to lose those fats. (which is pretty much non-existant, bird)

the china people are always , alwaysss spitting . like , -ew. gross.
shopping's gr8 , i bought tons of hong dou for domo ^^ HAHAAH and durians and i think i bought myself an 8G psp memory card there since it's cheaper than sg, fo' sure.

did you know, i've been trying to log into this blogger account since i left,
but i couldnt since the pw someone sent me is wrong -.- cos she decided to conjoin ALLL the words together.
i finally found out, today and uhhh, yeah.

i'd be off now, more china updates soon :O

Go away give me a chance to miss you

I have not been updating. How sure are you that I was in sgp?
I'm not going to be blogging for the next 2weeks or so, are you sure that I'd be in sgp?
It's raining and it's so cold.
And you, it's taking its toll over you ain't it.

I like exercising all by myself bcos, I have this longggg period all to myself to think what I want to do, what I plan to do, what I am going to do or abt ppl arnd me or whatever whichever whenever. Don't you think so?

Incase you don't already knw by now, I am working at a donut place. And when I finish my shift, I Reek (with a capital R) of donuts. It's disgusting, I look at my colleagues in amazement when they can still stomach some of them down. I do so many toppings for the donut that I even smell of them, I feel like one donut myself. Eew.

From now on, I am going to eat more ^^ hahaha and ironically, it'd be to lose my fats. C'mon laugh out loud.

I need to go back to sch soon to collect my leaving cert, I was too lazy to collect on the day I collected my results. And, did I tell you.. I'm in TP's culinary. HAHAHA My ex gf's ex bf is inside.



And lastly, have I mentioned how hot older woman are when they're toned? I don't knw how but they exude some kind of.. I don't really knw the right word to describe them. But my yoga instructor is.. seriously, Hot. Whhheew.

Incase you were thinking I am talking abt an ahmah with white hair, go bang yr head against the wall la.

I wanted to say so much but what's the point. I am going to earn big bucks Anyway and throw money at yr face if that's what you're always worrying. My life don't entirely depend on you.
Watch me succeed in my life bcos I'm going to.

Daryl asked me how I spent my Vday. I almost forgot what I did then.. suddenly I rmbed. I was doing yoga with my sister and my mother. HAHAHAHA.
I've got so much free time on my hands now that right now.. I am attending yoga classes regularly sometimes with the company of both my sister and mother.
I need to find a job but nobody wants to hire a golden haired male/female.
I'd have dyed my hair brown if my mom told me not to bcos I'd be wasting money and spoiling my hair. I swim and I bleached my hair, it's already double trauma. Dying it again plus I still put wax/clay... don't ask me what will happen. Cos I don't want to experience it.

My mother told me that I must watch what I say bcos she told her mother that she was going to marry a hawker and it really came true.
When she told me that, my heart almost couldn't take it bcos I told her, "Ma the indian newspaper man is my husband"
Hear me whine bcos NO, I don't wanna marry an indian man that's going to deliver newspaper (I'm.. not racist, ok?)


I'm going to make a boardgame. It'd be.. ____ and Larder.
Gimme some ideas ppl.
Ohyeah I'm sorry I didn't reply tags. But, HELLO MYCALENDARGIRL.
Should I have a tagboard and make it easy for spammers to spam my blog.
hmmmmmm.


BTW DOMO, THE DOG IS SO CUTE. (#$^*$_(^&#%

Okay I took a body fat thing and hmmm, I need to lose fats.
Yeah seriously bcos I have too much fats. And... I am at a loss at how to lose them bcos hor, I really don't knw. I exercise and I think I eat quite healthily...... actually no, I've got alot of junk at home. Ok I think I need to detox.
Eh I don't knw man.
Whatever, I want to earn so much money that when my kid or whoever ask me to buy for them smth, I won't need to reject them.
I feel suffocated.

STEPHANIE CARROLL (SPELL? HAHA) TAGGED ME TO DO THIS.


a. list seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
b. tag seven people to do the same.
c. do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it".

1.I need to shit everyday otherwise I'd be a grumpy grump
2.I mustttttttttttt eat at least 1 fruit everyday
3.When I run/swim, I only stop at a number I like for the day
4.When I'm lazy, I'm lazy, I don't move
5.I hate it when ___ talks so loudly
6.I don't like ppl pressing the doorbell
7.Don't ever wake me up unless I tell you to

the 7 ppl..
1.Tania soh ahhaha
2.Doralynn
3.whoever
4.that
5.reads
6.my
7.blog
HAHAHA

Yesterday was the worst day of the year so far.
I felt like a piece of lard, or a balloon. No.. not bcos I ate so much goodies. It's bcos I was down with a flu and my uncle gave me some medicine ppl hear it eon years ago and is currently ban ( I THINK), it resulted in my body couldn't take the medicine, and then I felt like I was going to puke but no.. I was not. I felt like I was a very big balloon. It sucks and I was quite grouchy the whole day bcos I was also down with a horrible sore throat.
Bcos I always want to bump into certain ppl at certain places and I don't get to, I've come to terms that the world isn't actually very small. But, when I saw my freaking MANAGER (BETTY) FROM BAKERZIN. SHIT OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
SHE'S MY DISTANT RELATIVE AND SHE WAS THE ONE THAT HYPERVENTILATED WHEN SHE SAW MY HAIR, SHE WENT BERSEK AND SHE COMPLAINED TO THE ONE THAT KEPT ON NAGGING AT ME. I'm sorry but her voice is really irksome, like a frog.
And I can't help it if she just refuses to look at me and wish me happy new year, I think she was quietly hoping that she can get outta the place ASAP bcos she left quite fast after I arrived. Hahahahaha.
but Dude man, I got angbao from my manager's husband. ^^
They gave $8, not bad. But I expected more from the manager. HAHA


It's a fine line between wanting to be thin and obsession.
Sometimes I feel like being an anorexic but when I look at how the obsession is taking a toll over someone so dear to me, I think, I should slap myself a thousand times for even having that thought. And incase you're worried if I'm anorexic, no. I'm not. I can safely say that I'm not, with no doubts.
^^v

So, today's the open house at my place. And I stink. Well, I didn't bathe the day before ytd bcos I was sick. I didn't bathe ytd bcos I was a balloon waiting to pop.

So naturally, I STINK and ppl are coming. Hahahahaha. Too bad, maybe I should fart wherever I go to complete the package. LOL

I'm not the type to forget about nights like this,


I baked soya pineapple tarts, my mother baked kueh bangkit.
You knw that coconut-ty biscuit that melts in yr mouth? Nvm, does anybody want tarts or that kueh bangkit? :D

I'm a happy person tonight, a really happy person tonight.
Pilates really help, not that I've went for the first trial lesson already.
I can safely say that bcos nobody (except dory) knws what the hell I'm talking abt.
Maybe the only thing I'm not very happy abt today is that domo just left for taiwan. Now I've got nobody to disturb and visit whenever I'm bored.

Hmmummmm..


And if I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you would be?

Okay so I smiled myself to slp last night. So?
Hahahaha.
Chinese new year is coming soon, not nice, not fun. I don't like the noise, I only like the $$
I'm hoping it wont rain or maybe I do. I wanna go swimming.
My dad's calling me and seriously man.. shhhhhhhh.

After 5days of freezing, walking, eating, shopping kowloon hongkong.
GUESS WHO'S BACK, YO! Hahaha not like you knew I was gone anw, but I don't really care right now. I'm back and I've got a job to keep myself busy with.
Whr are you domo? I got for you pancakes and yr laoPOUbing.

v^^v

I tell you what I did today, I looked thru the answers for the papers I did last year.
I'm scared and it's bcos I'm not freakingly scared. When.. I should be, right?
Hahaha okay, I should go to bed soon.
I had a dream the night before and I was telling myself in the dream that I need to tell Vick abt my dream. You knw I thought I was awake but it was actually me waking up in the dream so technically, I dreamt I woke up.


I've decided, I'm normal. Ry's feeling the same way as I am. So I'm normal ^^v
YAY

I feel like pushing everyone else to the limit, I wanna see their tolerance level. I don't want them to keep on giving in to me, it's becoming an unhealthy habit. I feel like having someone shout at me, tell me that I'm selfish, I'm doing everything all for myself.

Am I crazy, bcos I think ya'll are too nice and I am taking advantage of you you you and you.

So, shout at me? No, not nag.

A few days ago, some guy from overseas called me.
He asked me if I wanted to invest. I took him for a ride before I gave up talking and passed the phone to my mother.
She said "I'm her mother and my daughter's 12 years old so she obviously won't have the money, sorry."

That's random.
Ok, right now, I still don't feel the nervousness for release of results creeping in bcos I am falling aslp.
So clearly, I am still not nervous.

A table has reappeared once again after 2months without it. My room is seriously cluttered and I hope my mom really.. intends to look for another house. I need a room to myself, I like the company I have now but I don't like the baggage. (IE, the cosmetics.. )

It's more or less confirmed now, I'm getting my results on Thurs.
I'm nervous, yes I am. I'm nervous and I'm excited. No not for the bad results.
Haha. And.. there's dory/Daryl's party.
Geez, that girl is really leaving.
I am going to work (hopefully) and save money to go to Sydney and crash her house dolly's car whatever.

I am trying to find someone but hmmm. I think I need more resources. Help, help.

Note to self: rmb domo's hongdou bun otherwise she's gonna die bcos of hongdou drought

My heart sank.

Anna dreamt she scored 21pts. If that's reality, shit, I'm gonna score 31. Hahaha but since dreams are the opposite of reality, I told her she'd score 12.
I did not dream of anything.. But I don't mind 13 points or lesser. :D

So I said I booked the flights for hk already. I did not mention what happened before that. My sis and my mom took me for a ride, telling me the bookings did not go thru which made me supermegairritatinglyvery pissed. I cancelled on my friends for this and now you're telling me it wasn't booked? So yeah, I kinda blew up and I felt bad then, bcos apparently, both of them were behaving like they had halos on their head.
sis: Can you go to my hotmail?
me: wait, LAH. I'm looking at smth
sis: Pleaseeeeeeeee? :D:D:D

How to not feel bad and my mother was beside me, looking at me click anxiously at everything. Even playing along with me, asking me vietnam can anot. And when I clicked onto my sis email, there I saw the email for the confirmed flight itinery.
me: #(*%&#$)*@&%#
All of them burst out laughing and they told me they were trying hard not to laugh behind my back. Literally.

This is not good, my mother told me her mother who is my grandmother, might not be able to live long enough till her next next birthday. Her next birthday is just this sat and I don't knw how am I suppose to feel. I mean, what, I don't exactly talk to my grandmas. The only thing that's bothering me is how.. I'm going to deal when my turn to tell my kids (If there's any) comes. Like.. "yr grandma is going to die"
You knw how much I love my parents and I won't deny that I am slightly biased to my mom bcos really, I don't rmb spending so much time with my dad but that doesn't matter, he's a changed man now. And I should give him the opportunity. .. right?
Why am I saying this, I sound troubled when I'm not.
At least not for now..
I don't knw whr to start.
I've got a problem with pride.

"I like you"

This isn't a very good day, I heard smth I've dreaded since forever. It isn't a good/bad thing, just smth I dread.
And.. I am most likely going to receive my results next week.
I. Am. Dreading. It.

I am changing my biological clock once again, I cannot always sleep so late but I don't mind waking up late.
I'm hooked on Grey's. I feel like hiding in a hole.


"but, I don't like you enough"

This is not good, I saw my bill and it exploded. The last time it exploded this much, it was when I was.. sec1. Ohgod ohgod ohgod, pls, anybody, don't msg me anymore. Just call me cos I have free incoming calls. I don't care if I dislike talking on the phone or you dislike listening to my voice, just call if you wanna talk to me. Ok?

SO! Instead of going to Batam with V Ann and her family, I'm going to HK. Anybody knw what I can do there? I'm looking online and I can hardly find anything. .. Uhhhhh.

I need to find a new job nowwww.

I told you before,

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Oh hello tease, Japan was suppose to be with my mom but due to some issues, we're planning to go at the end of the year instead with my sister (cherry berry) and for the sydney, it would be with my mother again butttttttt I might tag along to BKK with domo? Don't knw.
Hmm..
I like the idea of working in F&B industry but right now, I don't wanna go spend money and dye my hair another colour presentable, so I'd just let my hair grow, which won't take long, and then I'd just leave it as it is or maybe, dye brown.
Anw, Sunday's my last day at work! ^^v
I told my sis before that I never imagined myself sitting down, in fact, everytime I think of the future of what I would be doing, I'm serving ppl (not a maid and not in macdonalds too you big sucker haha)
My sis thought I dreamt of working in macdonalds. And.. that's sad.
Hahaha.

Went for open house ytd and I met someone I met two years ago and that's so funny. I found her familiar, she found me familiar and none of us mentioned it till.. I hadta go somewhr else.


I hope and pray it doesn't rain bcos I want to go swimming today. I need to clear my mind. This isn't going anywhere and I'm sorry.

Hi, I am most likely going to Batam next week.
Wish me luck bcos, I think I might not be able to cross the border when I come back. Well that's bcos I would most probably be charcoal and they'd arrest me for possesing a chinese passport.

Hopes of going to Japan next month or so is gone like *poof* and now, I might just go to Sydney which is not a bad thing either. I'd get a chance to say hello to D.

I wanted to type quite alot but I am so freaking lazy, it's so late now. My phone is dead. Uhhhhh.

AHHHHHHHH

I'm talking to domo now and.. I don't knw why I said what I said but I did. Hahahhaa. You knw, there are always ppl that you wouldn't wanna lose in yr life right? I mean, not like there's actually ppl that I would WANT to lose but y'knw, some that you die die also cannot lose. .. Ok nvm.
You'd knw when you knw.

I'm going to be jobless in a few days time, so I am going with domo down to borders on Wed to try our uh, luck/grace to get the job. ^^
I saw two guys holding hands today going together to the toilet. My eyes are small, so when it goes like that, 0.0 you knw how big my eyes really went. It's not an everyday thing unlike lesbians.


I am going to dye streaks of red soon, after I quit bakerzin. I am so tempted to trip my manager and be the biggest bitch to have the biggest bitchfit ever at her. HAHAHA but the furthest(?) bitch I can ever get to is just, erh, 'change the fork for me pls'

Eh...... I forgot what I wanted to post. HAHAHA ok, nvm, I'm just leaving it as it is here.

Oh I heard my results will be released on the 24th omgomgomgomg (D, ITS ONE DAY BEFORE YR BDAY! HAHA)

ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS

Go watch, HAHAHAHA

This is so random but.. I really like tamago alot. And if any kind soul still wants to get me smth, anything, for any random occasion, you can get me a tamago pan. Thank you very much.

My sister and I are going to make our own sushi later 8D Right now, she's exercising and we're going to watch OC later, this is my first time staying home for the whole entire day for this week. And I am so freaking lazy to do anything else but just make a nice meal for myself (you too, if you want)
I need to cut my hair soon, I'm going to look like a lion soon.
Right now, I look just like a raccoon. Erm, ah ahbeng one. (rmb my goggle marks?)
Sigh.

I...... have so much to say.

If not for what domo told me last night, I think I would have done smth.. unpredictable. Hmm.
but ohwell.

Ok, so I told a big fat lie to my manager. BUT I really don't wanna work today cos I'd be starting at 1 tmr. Nvm la, my grandfather is dead anw, so it ain't so bad that I said I was going to visit him in the hospital. v^^v V^^V so happy

My sister just called and I held on to the phone for half an hour, what an unexpected conversation and yes I think I'm really unpredictable myself, I did the unthinkable of asking my sister out for dinner. If you're close enough to me, you knw that there's this tension between us that never cease to go away. But anw, she's much better now (I hope) and we're much better now ( I really hope) but I dont want to jump to conclusions. Bcos I don't wanna face another disappointment, the last time I thought of us this way, I shouted at her and once again, if you're involved with my daily activities last year, you'd knw what happened.
Ohwell.

I think even before my results are released at the end of this month, my hair would naturally turn brown. Byebye grey, byebye white, byebye wise hair. I'm growing muddier.
I should cut my hair soon, and I feel like dying it all over again bcos its so fun 8D
but it's bad for the hair and plus I go for regular swimming.......... I can picture myself bald.
Hhahahaha.

Next week's going to be my last week at bakerzin. Happy? Or not. I NEED TO FIND A NEW JOB that accepts my hair colour. C'mon man, daniel tay saw me ytd night and wished me happy new year.
He did not even say anything abt my hair, I don't understand why the fagtard (her name's nicole, i'm telling you her name so you can go bash her up at paragon bakerzin) went ballistic and asked me WHY DIDNT I TELL HER I WANTED TO DYE MY HAIR.
I'm sorry but I still cannot get over that sentence and every now and then, I'd picture me throwing the apron at her face and say, " I'M QUITTING"
But sadly, these sort of scene only happens in the head, never reality.
I think the most drastic thing I'd do is just walking out of the store. hahahaha.
What a sucker.

If.. I was still in secondary sch. It'd be my first day at sch today!
I.. miss sch. 8(

And, DOMO, if youre reading this, can we meet up soon, pls? I feel like telling you alot of things. hahahaha