likewise

 As mentioned more than a year ago, certain songs evoke a kind of emotions in you that you thought you have forgotten. 

I possess a certain kind of sadness when I am alone and she's right when she said, she worries a little when she leaves me alone. 

Because here I am alone - and thinking things that I promised I wouldn't. At the very same time, how can I not be thinking of those things when I am alone? 

It is exactly the reason I think about her that I start to think about other things - things that I know if I brought it up time and time again, it'd be the end of us. 

At the same time, we both know we don't have a future and everyday is every stolen moment. It suits the idealistic side of me when I am in the mood to just think about the events leading up to 23:59 on that very day. 

I am very well aware that the right thing to (always) do in this situation, it is to clench my teeth and let go. 

Can I bear to? Can I bear to? Can I bear to? 

How foolish.